☆野人王の垃圾桶 ☆PiKaChU's WorLd☆

~ 爱情 ~

2012-02-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

爱情到底是什么？

爱情 = 感觉？

爱情 = 缘分？

爱情 = 必要？

爱情 = 传宗接代？

爱情 = 婚姻？

爱情 = 责任？

爱情 = 可怜？

我相信很多人都很想知道吧..

今天刚好是农历新年最后的一天，也就是元宵节..

大家都知道元宵节就是农历里的情人节..

更知道在这一天抛柑抛焦，

可能会让单身的人捞到他们的“缘分”

然后结束他们的单身生活..

虽然本人也是单身贵族..

但本人并没有去抛柑捞焦的..

不是我不想结束我的单身生活..

只是觉得现在还不是时候..

大学的最后一年，最后一个学期了..

想要平平静静地度过..

本人的意思不是说爱情会让我烦躁..

只是本人还学不会管理爱情..

本人还没有那充分的自信..

不过可以肯定的就是我已经放下之前失败的恋情..

爱情总是让本人又爱又恨..

爱的时候很爱，恨的时候就恨入心..

有时候也会让本人犹豫不决，停留在灰色地带..

本人很想果断地解决，

但往往就会出现各种情况和因素导致本人狠不下心..

说爱情简单？它一点也不简单

说爱情复杂？它也不至于复杂

听过朋友的爱情故事..

看过朋友的甜蜜回忆..

心里总是羡慕他们..

本人承认我的胆子可不小..

但面对“爱情”这家伙，

我的胆子是缩成比灰尘还小..

本人也想要甜蜜的爱情故事..

不需要轰轰烈烈..

只愿可以细水长流..

可是迟迟都踏不出第一步..

现在是只名正言顺的“缩头乌龟”!!

你不可以说我想太多..

因为女生本来就是思想家..

你最多只能说我负面的预测家..

嘻嘻嘻...

又或者你可以说我想把我人生里最美好的时光给一位对的人..

给一位值得让我去付出一切的人..

爱情，加油!!

~ 不见了 ~

2012-01-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

我的勇气不见了...

我的冲动不见了...

我的个性不见了...

到最后，就连写信息给你的理由也不见了..

我到底还剩下什么？？

~ 最终留言 ~

2011-12-31T11:54:00.000+08:00

有人说日有所思夜有所梦..

虽然梦到的男主角不是他..

但从梦中醒来的那一刻，

手机碰巧的响了...

往手机荧幕一看...

原来是他的信息..

心里有百般的心情..

因为不懂这次的信息内容是什么..

模模糊糊的打开了那封信息..

读了几遍信息的内容..

原来他是想向我道歉..

他说一切的发生都不是他想要的..

他是逼不得已..

我不是很明白他的目的但我回了他信息说..

“虽然不明白你的用意，但我会尊重你”

“这并不是我的意思，是她的意思”

“原来如此，好，我明白了..放心吧..=D"

我也是女生，当然明白她的用意何在..

所以我也不怪她..

如果说我有一直默默地祝福他们，那都是假的..

我也曾经讨厌他们的速度..

至于是什么速度，心知就好啦..

事情已经过了那么久，心也放开啦..

现在学会的东西也比较多..自己也比较懂事了..

所以没有必要拿别人的事来惩罚自己..

两个人在一起最重要就是 “信任” 和 “包容”..

可能在她眼里，她觉得她包容不到我这位“老朋友”..

所以就出此下策..

但没关系啦..我非常明白这位女生的心情..

而且你做的很有道理啊...

这次我真的衷心祝福你们幸福快乐到永远..O(∩_∩)O嗯！

~雨滴般的眼泪~

2011-12-21T01:31:00.002+08:00

听着别人的歌，

流着自己的眼泪..

有时候我们不是在听歌..

而是在听心情..

这个时刻，

我突然很想大哭一场..

眼泪莫名其妙的涌出来..

哗啦啦地在脸上下了一场雨..

但我却找不到可以让我依靠的肩膀..
找不到一个可以让我不顾一切的在他的胸膛大哭..
找不到一个会在我说"我没事”时，
给我一个拥抱安慰我说“我知道你在逞强"..

~ ♥ Once In A Love ♥ ~

2011-11-10T09:20:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time we didn't meet up with each other..

But it doesn't spoil the relationship between us..

I still feel the love from you when I met you..

I still feel the cares and laughter..

It's really a sweet memory I ever had..

Thanks God for letting me to know you..

I Love You ~ ♥

My beloved SC Company Sisters...

Again we all date at Genting Highland..

Love the moment with you all..↖(^ω^)↗

Besides, I also get myself a fake tattoo..

Awww...feel like to get a real one..

Nice right?? O(∩_∩)O

I'm just that tall...T-T *Cry*

♥ ♥

Next gathering will be at Singapore..

YEAH!! Can't wait for it..

but now have to save money money first..

All sisters, Gambateh for saving your bling bling (money) ya..

♥ ♥

~ ♥ Pulau Redang 热浪岛 ♥ ~

2011-10-20T09:44:00.002+08:00

Wow!! Finally!!!

The FIRST ever island trip for me in my life!!

In the previous time, my parents are always say NO if I tell them that

I wanted go for a trip on island..

BUT this time, they FINALLY say YES!!!!

Oh my god!! That is a super duper best news ever for me..

and the FIRST island I went is REDANG ISLAND!!

The island that I dreamed to go!

Well, a picture speaks thousands words..

Let's the photos to speak out how I feel...

BUT guys, please hold your nose to avoid from bleeding ya...haha..XDD~~

~ The GREAT view of Redang Island ~

~ Is totally a HEAVEN ~

~ Our Hotel for FAKE ~ ( hahaha..XDD~)

~ My Lovely Dovely Housemates ~

! Oops ! Too sad for you guys...because is all in BIKINI!

~ I never caught the nemo but the nemo CAUGHT ME!! ~

~! 4 pair of ROASTED Chicken Wings ~!

~ HOTTEST CHIC SPOTTED!! ~

~ More More ~

~ Love ! ♥ ~

! ~ Innocent Face of Him ~ ! ( Hate him!! make me look so mature)

~ ♥ Beef Steak ♥ but not mine ~

♥ Best Ever TEH TARIK in Redang Island ♥

♥ The MEMBERS ♥

♥ Our personal Driver + Tour Guide + Beach Boy --- VIRY ♥

~! We got the invitation from CAPTAIN to DRIVE the FERRY!!! ~

FOR REAL!!! Pulau Redang --> Kuala Terengganu

~ ! Souvenir that I got for myself !~

~ Ending Pose ~

( 9th October 2011 - 11 October 2011 )

So what are you waiting for??

Get yourself to Redang Island for once!!!

It definitely won't disappointed you...

I ♥ Redang Islang!! ~\(≧▽≦)/~

~ 生日前的恶梦 ~

2011-09-18T20:23:00.000+08:00

说起这个梦，自己也觉得莫名其妙的..

那天只是纯粹的想闭目养神，睡个小觉..

谁知一闭上眼睛，我的灵魂就进入了一个梦境..

这个梦境的地点都是我熟悉的..

第一个就是我的PJ房间..

那时的情景很模糊，自己也不怎么记得了..

只是记得那时我的室友骂我..

说我很吵，吵到她不能睡觉..

然后她还说她不会和我庆祝我的生日..

我当时眼泪已经在眼眶里打滚了..

然后梦境一下子跳到我的家乡..

我安顺的家..

我一踏进家，发现里面一个人也没有..

那时正是我的生日..

然后这是我的电话响起..

看看电话，是妈妈打来..

"hello,盈..爸妈和哥哥弟弟都出去了..今年生日不能和你庆祝哦.."

“har? 你们去哪里哦？”

这时只听见电话的另一端传来

“嘟...嘟...嘟...”

妈妈已经盖了电话..

在梦境的我更是哭了起来..

朋友们也纷纷的告诉我他们不能和我庆祝我今年21岁的生日了..

这时的我除了哭，就只是哭..

整个哭包得样子..

哭着,哭着..

就这样哭醒了..

醒了之后，才发现原来我真的有在哭..

眼泪还大滴小滴地在脸上滚着..

原来我的内心还真的怕没有人会陪我度过我21岁的生日..

不懂做什么，今年我很重视我的生日..

往年的我都不怎么去重视..

不怎么想策划些什么..

但今年真的很不同..

心里一直一直都很想找个人陪我过今年的生日..

哪怕只是一位朋友还是和家人，我都愿意..

就真的不想一个人过..

虽然小灰会是那唯一的一个陪我度过生日..

但我还是需要一位会祝我生日快乐，和我说话的..

除非小灰变成人类了..那我就无话可说..

但这也未免太勉强小灰了吧..

这个恶梦真的把我变得很脆弱..

同时也提醒了我..

我是孤单的..

如果小灰真的变成人类了，那该多好..

那个恶梦就不会实现了..

~ 很久都没哭了 ~

2011-09-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

有add我Facebook的人一定也有看到这个blog的标题和Facebook的status一模一样吧？

在Facebook里，我都告诉大家这是歌名

对！其实真的是一首歌的名字

但其实我的实况也是如此..

我昨晚不懂为何真的哭了起来..

就连今天早上驾车的时候，

也不禁的流了眼泪..

这一切都要从昨晚接了爸妈的电话过后开始吧..

从以前到现在，

我都说自己是位爱哭包..

到现在也没改变过..

但我也不曾因为这样而觉得羞耻..

哭也是一种发泄..

总好比喝酒吸烟健康得多..

说说为什么我又再次掉泪吧..

对你们来说可能只是小事一桩..

但对我来说可是件大事..

21岁对任何人来说是个人生的阶段

尤其是对女孩子..

因为这是象征着你已经正式成为所谓的“大人”了..

可惜的是，

没有人可以陪我度过这个"大人”的生日..

就是我的21岁生日..

我每一年的生日都碰上九王爷吃素的时期..

所以家人都不可能陪我过生日..

除非是吃素的生日晚餐啦..

爸爸有曾经问我是否要开派对..

就在我农历生日开派对庆祝..

因为我的农历生日刚好就是华人的中秋节..

无可否认蛋糕当然就是中秋月饼啦..

因为中秋月饼的英文就是MoonCAKE嘛..

但朋友和家人都不在身边，

开派对也没意思啊..

我现在人在PJ,爸妈在家乡..

不可能要爸妈大老远跑到PJ就因为帮我庆祝农历生日吧..

朋友就更加不可能啦..

做工的就做工..

读书的就读书..

考试的就考试..

自己也没有什么男朋友或爱人的..

到最后

就只剩下自己咯..

想到自己21岁的生日要那么孤单

那么寂寞

真的有点失望..

失望就会心情不好

到最后就只有用哭来发泄啦..

室友们常常都说我很man

太Man了..

他们还叫我有时候要娇滴滴一点..

男生才会喜欢..

其实我说啊，我并不是man

而是太过独立，太过坚强

所以才会这样..

我哭的时候

我需要拥抱的时候

我需要人陪我的时候

你们都看不见

你们都感觉不到

你们都不知道

我不想摆出那种脆弱的样子给别人看..

我不想别人认为我是那种需要依靠别人的女孩..

我需要的是一个可以知道我在装坚强时候

给我最温暖的拥抱或安慰的人

但始终都遇不到这个人

说到底..

就因为我这种倔强得性格搞得连要个男朋友帮我庆祝生日也没有..

说真的我的生日从来没有和男朋友度过..

可悲吧？

不过比起非洲小孩也幸福得多啦..

至少我吃得饱，穿得暖..

没什么啦..

发牢骚..发牢骚..

发完了就要继续生活..

没有人和我一起庆祝生日也没关系啦..

至少还有小灰陪我游车河，飙车飙车..

~ 寂寞的脸 ~

2011-08-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

有多久没有异手再碰我的脸..

有多久我的脸没有和另一个人的脸靠的那么近..

就在昨晚突然心血来潮和室友们去clubbing..

是真的clubbing..

而且还是在有钱仔的地区, Bangsar

第一次去这样的地方还真的有点不习惯

但我告诉自己我一定要试试..

至少在人生中也要有一次..

画了浓妆，带上假睫毛..

看看镜子，快要认不出自己了..

可能这就是所谓的面具

到了目的地，进去不到5分钟

我就已经灌了两杯black label酒 (有加coke的)

感到有点晕晕的..

很想让自己醉..

但不想再陌生人的地方..

到最后还是控制了自己,

跑去和室友们跳舞..

由于穿着4寸高的高跟鞋..

跳舞有点困难，一直站不稳..

还好室友们一直拉着我..

跳累了，就回到座位..

这次我又一次灌了两杯black label..

都是室友敬我的酒..

喝了下去，开始觉得更加醉了..

然后又和室友们去跳舞..

人太多太挤，结果都是脸碰脸..

手碰手的跳舞..

我那寂寞的脸突然觉得很温馨..

因为已经很久没碰过别人温暖的脸了..

寂寞突然消失了..

就算我的脚再痛再累..

我也不甘愿回去座位休息..

还好我的室友在，照顾我以免有咸猪手乘机偷吃豆腐

也幸好我的室友们不是色狼, 不然我就连渣都没有了..

我就和室友们抱着一起跳舞..

灯光一直闪着,我就一直跳着..

直到我的室友拉我出去透透气..

他怕我真的醉了..哈哈

透了气又回到座位..

又喝了一杯酒..

脸上的笑容显出我的寂寞..

回到家真的很好睡..

因为已经带有醉意了..

头脑不用想太多东西..

这种感觉真的很不错..

有时候我真的很想醉，试试看醉的感觉..

但始终找不到对的时间..

我寂寞的脸又要回到寂寞的世界了..

虽然少了一些体温，

但我的世界还是要过..

笑笑吧..=]

~ 我的性格 ~

2011-07-22T12:16:00.000+08:00

说到我的性格..

妈妈常说我是那种野蛮任性...

不怕陌生，胆还大过天的女生..

但好在是不依赖别人，还蛮独立的..

听起来，我该觉得高兴呢？

还是伤心？

我承认我是野蛮任性的女孩..

我说一就一,说要就要...

从来不会再三思..

但也不是每次都是这样的..

都是看情况而定..

有时还会想太多，决定不了..

但可以让我这么野蛮任性

而可以一句话也不说的人也只有一个..

那就是我爸..

我真的非常爱我爸..

谢谢他这么宠我..

我看我再也找不到一个男人可以让我这么野蛮任性的对待他了..

对你们来说，我就是蛮不讲理，野蛮任性的小女孩..

我从来不顾及你们的感受，对吧?

我知道..我也慢慢地在改变自己..

但需要你们给我一点点的时间，可以吗？

我的性格其实很简单..

我就像一个大小孩..

得到就开心，得不到就大哭..

我知道我的年龄也已经不允许我这样的性格了..

但我也不想扮大人说话..

因为大人的世界就像一个黑暗的社会..

说句话都要处处耍心机..

明明这句话是这个意思，

但其实里头还藏了另一句话..

话里有话，甚至还藏有鱼刺..

刺得你伤痕累累..

连说句话的也要想了很久才敢说..

有时候我在想，是谁把这个世界变得那么复杂？

话里有话，你就是天才..

话里没话, 你就是白痴..

我之所以会变得那么犹豫不决，

每次都会在猜测你的话里是否藏有另一句话，

也是因为有人说过我是白痴..

有谁愿意被人说是白痴啊？

有时候，我真的很不想说话..

因为说话真的很累..

我不说话，别人就说我串..

说我是大忙人，不想理其他人了..

但其实，你们又想过我那时的感受是如何吗？

每个人都有低落的时候，

我低落的时候，就是不想说话..

我只是想静静地放空自己..

这就是我！

明白我的人，了解我的人

就会知道这点..

所以我很感激那班了解我的姐妹们..

还有我的兄弟们..

最重要的还是要感激我家人..

老爸每次在我不开心的时候，

逗我开心，陪我聊天..

妈咪每次和我说些人生道理，

和我分享她的故事..

让我的心变得更宽大..

我的性格就是这样..

开心就笑，伤心就哭..

容易生气但也容易消气..

小小的成就足以让我开心一整天..

我知道不是每个人都可以忍受我的性格..

但这就是我!!

当然，我会慢慢改掉我的野蛮任性的性格..

慢慢改掉我的坏习惯..

我不介意你们批评我，改善我..

但可以用比较婉转的方式告诉我吗？

我比较喜欢这婉转方式..

不好意思..

这就是我嘛..

~ 实习的生活 ~

2011-07-15T07:12:00.001+08:00

非常的抱歉..

我知道已经很久没更新我的部落格了..

因为最近本小姐有点小忙啦..

不好意思咯..

现在已经踏入实习的第八个星期..

先说第一个星期吧..

第一个星期呢，过得不是好滋味儿得..

第一个星期因为不懂得什么规矩..

结果犯了很多不该犯的错..

给同事们带来困扰..

不过还好他们都很用心的教导我..

慢慢的也就熟悉啦..

第一个星期呢，也发生了一些不愉快的事..

不过还好这个事情没有延续下去..

既然都知道不适合了，那就放手吧..

不想看到另一个我..

祝福你..=3

第二个星期呢，跟同事出去了解一个live show是怎么进行的..

就是那个终极天王歌唱比赛..

我也在现场哦..^^

刚好U-Kiss也来当表演嘉宾..

开心极了！

不过他们也让我了解了一件事..

原来他们也有化妆的..(o.O)

而且化妆前后都有很大差别哦..

还以为男艺员只是弄一下头发和补补粉..

从来不知道他们还会画eyeliner..

化了装的他们比起没有化妆的他们,帅多了！

在show还没开始之前，U-Kiss曾多次站在我帮旁边..

虽然他们的实际年龄比我小，但样子看起来比我老..

哈哈，不懂该高兴好还是替他们觉得可悲..

实习的第二个星期竟然在公司里闹绯闻..

还闹得热沸腾腾的...

我的妈呀~

我竟然可以和一个我完全不认识的人搞绯闻？

未免太夸张了吧？

都是同事他们搞出来的啦..

第三和第四个星期也过的蛮不错的..

第三个星期跟我的同事们去了解一个嘉年华是怎么样的..

就是那个街头8王兵fun秀啊..

就是我的实习公司，八度空间举行的哦!

还蛮开心的，因为第一次跟同事去这种类型的活动维持次序..

忘了告诉你我实在品牌部门实习..

所以八度空间的大小事也要我们这个部门通过后才可以出街哦..

听起来我的部门满大牌的..

哈哈..也要谢谢我美丽的老板，Belinda Chee (8tv Quickie的主持人)

帮我找到这一份工..^^

第五个星期呢，就帮了PWS (PrimeWork Studio)拍了一个节目

那个节目的名字叫《启航》

跟我的名字很相像哦，也是有个“启”字..

在这个节目呢，我只是出现几秒钟的小角色..

那个角色就是扮演某人的老婆..

看着窗外，默默的等候老公回来..

哈哈，有够搞笑的啦..

不过拍摄过程都很顺利啦..^^

第一次上电视，有什么不满意的地方，多多包涵哦..

第六个星期呢，就帮上了NTV7的节目，《女人占尚风》做了他们的模特儿..

我这个模特儿可不是他们要的衣架子啦..

是因为他们有兴趣把我的秀发搞一搞..

结果呢就搞出了一个蛮时尚的style

拍摄完毕后，我就顶着那个发型回公司..

结果没人认得我！！

笑死我了，他们说我那个发型很配我..

虽然那个发型会让我看起来比较成熟，

但看过的人都说不错哦！最重要是不会像欧巴桑..

哈哈...可能考虑生日的时候换去那个发型..^^

再看看吧..把弄了会想念我的直长发...(T-T)

这个星期呢也要多谢我的好同事，给了我BEAST FANS CONCERT

价值非凡的入门票..

好让我有机会近距离的看看BEAST..

他们好帅哦！！！！

尤其是那个Du Jun...简直就是帅呆了..
谢谢Evonn哦！^-^

第七个星期呢过得比较平凡..

没什么特别的事发生..

但第八个星期就不同啦！

我又上电视了..哈哈

不过还是小角色而已，就是做路人甲..

哈哈..所以基本上除了《女人占尚风》的节目之外，

其他都看不到我的样子啦..

不过也好，当着是一种经验..

然后我也知道即将来领的第九个星期，我也会去参与拍摄..

就是拍关于鬼节的宣传片..

我是那个女英雄，会救那个男主角哦..

哈哈..还不懂会不会看到样子..

所以敬请期待我在你的电视里出现咯..

哈哈..

我可爱的爸爸说完全不像我..T-T

你们又觉得如何呢？？

~ 离开 ~

2011-06-14T07:45:00.000+08:00

当一个人下定决心要离开你的时候..

你会有什么感受呢？

伤心？？

开心？？

不舍得？？

恨不得他走得远远的？？

如果你是开心或想要他越走越远最好,

现在的你应该很讨厌他吧？

但有没有想过，

万一他真的离开你了

自己会多一份空虚呢？

因为少了人和你吵架..

每天和他吵架的时间就会空挡着..

那时的你就会很想念他的存在..

如果你是伤心或不舍得的,

那你和他感情也应该很不错

但你又有没有想过

如果他为了你留下来

自己可能就是他未来的绊脚石呢？

他的离开就是要寻找他的不一样的未来..

如果他留了下来

未来就会和他想象中的不一样

我们就会破坏了他那完美无缺的未来..

天下无不散之筵席..

要离开的总会离开..

要留下的总会留下..

宁愿自己多一份空虚..

也不要成为他人未来的绊脚石..

宁愿成全他人的美梦

也不要成为他人的恶梦..

拿得起，就要放得下

离开也未必是坏事..

至少未来他人多一份幸福

少一分痛楚..

虽然不知道自己以后少了他人的日子会是怎样..

但至少自己知道他人以后的日子会是一个不一样的开始..

( ^_^ )/~~拜拜

加油哦！

~ 坚强 ~

2011-06-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

从来没想过自己是多么的脆弱..

原来我并不是想象中的坚强..

今早看了番薯猪的部落格..

内心深深地感受到痛..

痛到才发现来自己还会心疼流泪..

我了解他的感受..

我也了解他的心痛..

更明白他那四次的流泪..

因为我也曾经这样过..

回到公司给同事说了几句..

但我并不怪我的同事..

毕竟是我先犯错..

但衰事接二连三地发生..

先来爸爸买给我的鞋子竟然坏了..

再来我的衣橱莫名其妙的倒塌..

放工后打算去Carrefour买..

但Carrefour竟然没有我要的衣橱..

我也不胜其烦跑到了附近的Giant看看..

哪里知道这么大间的Giant竟然没卖衣橱..

一个人急起来失控的在车上哭了..

边驾车边搽眼泪..

多希望会有人和我心灵相通..

打个电话安慰我..

但这些事都不可能发生..

所以默默地自己一个人驾到The Curve附近的Tesco找衣橱..

一个人逛街的滋味还是酸的..

我也不想嫌太多..

看了一个不错的衣橱，价格合理..

就付了钱，匆匆的跑向小灰的怀抱..(小灰 = 车车）

也不知为何再次在车里失控的哭了..

我真的很希望小灰是一个人而不是一辆车..

那他可以让我在他怀里像个小孩的大哭..

朋友都说我爱装坚强..

但如果我不装..

这就不是我了..

我不想让别人看到我脆弱的一面..

因为很丑..

我都希望我周围的人看到我都是开开心心..

而不是皱着头皮，为我烦恼..

我爱装坚强并不是我想要..

我也想自己可以像其他女生一样小鸟依人..

但我就是不想别人看到我脆弱的一面..

我要坚强下去..

明白我的人，才会了解我的心情..

或许我前世是个男生..

所以今世才会那么的“大男人”..

虽然今天崩溃了..

失控的哭了好几次..

但明天大家还是会看到坚强的我..

我会向小强学习..

学习它那种打不死的精神..

继续加强我自己..

让自己更坚强..

谢谢大家今天对我的关心还有安慰..

对不起，让你们操心了..

明天，我绝对会让你们看到我的笑容的..

(*^__^*)

~ 想念 ~

2011-06-05T16:48:00.000+08:00

想念你了..

所以回来了..

我亲爱的部落格...

你有想念我吗？？

我常常都这么问别人..

就连我的小灰（我威猛的车车）

我都这么问..哈哈

因为七早八早就把小灰丢在泊车场..

放工了才可以看见他..

难免会想念他啦..

( 小灰迟早会嫌我烦..哈哈)

可是真真令我想念的还是另有其人...

到底是谁呢？

哈哈..不是男的也不是女的..

就是我的宝贝老公..

TaDa!!

和他整年没见面了..T-T

毕竟他也带了不少欢乐和难忘的回忆给我..

说到底，我还是对某些事无法放下..

我才会搞到如今这样..

现在的我最怕听到一些歌..

尤其是情歌..

听了就会觉得空虚寂寞..

听了就会有那种渴望..

渴望有人可以给我一个温暖的拥抱..

但算啦！

我去抱抱我的抱枕就好啦..

它也可以给我温暖..哈哈..

想念一些不应该想念的人的确有点可怕..

看来我要把我的脑袋给洗洗了..

不然后果不堪设想..(>.<)

再多4个月就21岁了..

真的不想那么快长大咧~╭(╯^╰)╮

但这还不是最大的问题..

人毕竟还是要经过生老病死..

我最大的问题还是那时会有人记得我的生日吗？

谁会来和我庆祝呢？

21岁生日啊..当然希望可以和我的家人

好姐妹，好兄弟

一起度过..

当让最好不过的还是可以和自己心爱的人

一起庆祝..

但至今我都没有爱人..~~o(>_<)o ~~

所以就不用想太多了..

缘分都不能强求的..

只能默默等待咯..

我的好姐妹们..

我好想念你们啊！

我的好兄弟们..

你们可好吗？

我可爱的老爸老妈..

你们有想念你们可爱的女儿吗？

我想念你们啦！！~~~~(>_<)~~~~

~ 发呆 ~

2011-05-19T10:48:00.000+08:00

被我抛弃了这么久，

我是有责任再让你复活...

对不起，亲爱的部落格..

各位读者，久违咯！

今天不想说什么..

只想静静地发呆..

静静地在家望着墙壁发白日梦..

我不是忧郁..

也不是不开心..

只是心里有种不舍得的心情..

不想离开家..

想在家陪家人..

多一天是一天..

再过2天就要回去充满压力的生活了..

换个方面想，就是要回去充满挑战，每天都不同环境的生活了..

虽然我一直都很希望我的生活是与众不同的..

虽然我想要不平凡的生活..

但在这一刻，我突然想静静地过日子..

静静地发呆..

没有原因的发白日梦..

有人说2011年5月21日是世界末日..

老实说，我自己真的怕会发生..

而且刚好那天也是我回PJ的那一天..

我不想回去大部分也因为这件事..

不是说我怕死..

是因为我怕如果真的发生，

我无法在家人身边..

我无法陪他们到最后..

就算死也不能和家人一起..

好了,不多说..

发呆的时间也所剩无几..

我继续去发呆了..

~ 时间 ~

2011-04-28T16:01:00.000+08:00

时常听别人说:“哎呀！没时间了！”

“如果一天有60个小时就好”

而我每次就会对别人说

"每个人都有时间”

“问题就让时间来证明，解决一切"

但每次说到这句活..

心里就会有百般滋味..

我看起来是个有时间的人，

但我唯一缺少的是我的自信..

对于自己的信心往往就爬不到山顶..

往往就是藏在谷底里..

我可以说是个很自卑的人..

尤其是在外表上和感情上..

看见满街都是天使脸孔，魔鬼身材的辣妹..

不用说也知道我的表情会是怎么样..

先是目瞪口呆，然后来个羡慕的表情..

再来一个眼睛在那辣妹上

不断地左看右看..

上看下看..

最后辣妹走了，就是头低低没信心的表情..

感情上，我每次都很怕..

怕什么，我自己也不懂..

就因为怕，我每次就会把手松开..

幸福就是这样从我的手中溜走..

就算遇到一个很好的男生..

那种恐惧感还是会存在..

不是怕那个男生会对我怎样..

是怕我会对那个男生怎样..

虽然我曾经说过，

不管什么事，时间都会帮我们解决..

但这次时间要怎么解决也解决不了..

因为我没那种运，

没那种信心,

也没那种命..

有时候，我会怀疑

是不是神要我经过些什么挫折

或者失败

还是什么大挑战

才会给我一个比较好的生活..

至少在感情上，我可以拥有很坚定的自信心..

但还是算了吧..

或许我的命就是这么苦..

好的东西总不会属于我的..

所以

时间啊时间..

你几时会帮我解决问题？？

你几时才会证明一切给我？？

你几时才会把我的恐惧感赶走？？

你几时才会给我像辣妹那样的外表呢？

明年就世界末日啦..

我还剩不多少日子等你啊..

~ BITCH ~

2011-04-27T11:06:00.000+08:00

说到这个字..

我突然才发现到它就在我昨晚的梦出现..

昨天发生了一些事情,

心里很难受..

因为发现到自己的存在从来没带过欢乐给大家..

带来的反而是忧伤..

更加无耻的是浪费了某人的心思和时间..

昨晚梦见了番薯猪的朋友，Noob, cutie 和 Jin..

他们不约而同的在msn找我..

然后同时也用了这个字 "Bitch" 骂了我一顿..

我反而没有反驳他们..

还回复他们 “Thanks for that.”

“I admit that I am a bitch =]”

长痛不如短痛..

我不值得你为我这么做..

谢谢你, 番薯猪..

~ Left · 左 ~

2011-04-26T18:32:00.000+08:00

我不是你右边的那位女生..

I'm not the girl who stand right beside you..

谢谢你。

Thank you so much..

对不起。

And I'm truly sorry..

~ 我的游戏世界 · My Game's World ~

2011-04-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

有谁没有想过想要设计一个属于自己的世界？

但往往只有在发白日梦的时候，

自己的世界才会浮现在空气中..

被手指一动..

"Pok"

你的世界就这样破了..

如果有看Digimon 2的人，

结局就是一个玩游戏玩了几十年游戏的人，

把Digimon世界设计出来后，

但却没有机会踏进他所设计的世界..

哪怕就只是那一步..

我也设计了我自己的世界..

虽然不怎么好看..

不怎么高科技..

但至少在我的游戏世界里，

我可以选择我要做些什么..

不用理别人怎么想..

自己高兴就好..=D

click, watch and comment..

thanks..

~ 欠揍.Deserved ~

2011-04-22T09:31:00.000+08:00

我很想生病到五颜六色..

I wish I will get sick..

我很想把自己弄不见..

I wish I can make myself disappear..

我很想自己从来没有存在在这世界上..

I wish I never exist in this world..

我很想...做一些欠揍的东西..

I wish to do something that will make people beat me..

那大家就可以把我揍到扁扁的..

So that you guys can beat me until I become flat..

谢谢..

Thanks..

~ More Than Words ~

2011-04-07T08:38:00.000+08:00

Having a very long "vacation" with Mr. Assignment and my blog is being neglected..

Very sorry, my babe blog..

Now here I come to visit you and give you a big hug hug...=3

During the "vacation", there are tons of fun, sweet, stressed, upset things happened...

I am definitely stressed up and tension when I am having vacation with Mr.Assignment..

He didn't give me any sweetness or comfortable..

and yet I still need to work together with him until very late night..

ZOMBIEEE for 3 continuous sleepless night...

(>.<)

But I still love my Mr Assignment for giving me such a outstanding adventure..

A creepy, scary, and full of challenges adventure..

There are more that I can say with words..

It is a indescribable feeling..

Anyway, I have my sweetest April fool this year..

What is the thing that make me feel so sweet??

Hmm...I would like to keep it as my little secret..

If you guys wanna know it, then you guys need to slowly figure it out..

I would like to have some mysteries and suspends for this little secret..hehe..

At the same time, I hope myself had make the correct decision..(^-^)

Well, here I want to take the opportunities to apologize to my dearest family..

Especially my lovely parents..

Sorry to make them to worry about me due to the outstanding adventure gave by Mr. Assignment..

Sorry for my expensive phone bill during the "vacation"..

Sorry daddy..Sorry Mummy..

I'm truely deeply very sorry..

(>.<)

Besides, I think I just miss the chance to work with my lovely pretty Boss (Belinda Chee) again...

This is also because of Mr. Assignment and I miss the chance..

ARGHH!! I hate you, Mr Assignment..

Why don't you just disappear earlier?? (T-T)

Sigh..Never mind..

I need to be stay positive thinking..

I'm sure there will be another chance which is coming soon..(^-^)

Last but not least..

I am having serious HOMESICK!!

Mummy, sorry for can't going back to celebrate your birthday..

I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH!!

DADDY!!

I Miss You Too!! (T-T)

~ RainBow ~

2011-03-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wish to see rainbow right after rain?

Yes, I do.

I wish there is always someone draw me a rainbow after the rain..

Even though is not the real one..

But at least it is a rainbow that made up of 7 different colours..

A colourful rainbow that bend downward but make my dull lips bend upward..

I always hope there is a rainbow that can comfort me..

Know me well..

Care me meticulously..

Hug me every time when I said " I'm ok"..

and tell me " I know you are not"..

I always hope that I can own a rainbow in my life..

So I will never walk into Grey Area..

Not even black and white or sepia..

~ 第一次 ~

2011-02-27T14:19:00.001+08:00

我所谓的第一次，不是你们想象中的第一次..

我的第一次就是第一次被送去医院...

虽然不是什么严重的病..

但心里那种莫名的害怕，恐惧感还是存在..

那种爱莫能助，孤单的心情真的无法形容..

第一次坐在轮椅上，被救护人员推进急救室..

第一次被数名医生站在我旁边，帮我降低心跳..

第一次做ECG 和心跳测验..

第一次躺在病床上，被护士推去另一件病房..

第一次吊盐水..

第一次感觉到和家人好像有种隐形的距离..

躺在病床上的那一刻，

我真的很希望家人就在身边..

紧紧地握着我的手..

告诉我不要害怕..

现在我总算明白为什么大部分的老人家或病人都不想住院..

因为你实在无法想象，你躺在病床上的时候..

那种害怕的滋味..

就算有人在你身旁，你也会觉得不好意思..

连累他们，令他们无法上班，无法做他们的事..

不过还好这次我没什么大碍，下午就可以出院了..

在医院的期间，表姐们都很关心我，

无时无刻都打电话给我..

还有我的阿姨们，舅舅，叔叔，姑姑，姑丈们..

妈妈告诉我说差不多整个安顺的亲戚都知道了..

真的还蛮吓到~~ 0.0

其中一个表姐还把我的病情夸张化了..

吓到其他亲戚们..

哈哈..真的很不好意思..><

在这里，我还要谢谢Vernard, Chelsea还有美棋(Maggie)..

谢谢Vernard把我送去医院..

害到他睡眠不足的..

Chelsea也一样..谢谢你陪我在医院一整天..

帮我联络我的父母..

真的很谢谢你..

还有Maggie。。谢谢你的安慰..

我那时候听到医生所说的话，真的有点慌了..

希望没影响到你去interview的心情..><

最后，我要谢谢我的爸爸妈妈还有弟弟..

爸爸妈妈特地从安顺上来..

爸爸无微不至的照顾我..

妈妈更是病了,现在连声音也没有..

弟弟昨晚竟然自动自发的帮我吃掉3/4的晚餐..

然后夹很多菜给我..煎炸食物也帮我吃了..

哈哈..表姐说可能我的弟弟知道我要买手机给他..

所以对我特别好..

哈哈..但我觉得应该不是..

今天病情好转了..

谢谢大家的关心哦..

希望没有第二次..

大家要健健康康，开开心心哦..^^

~ My Dreams In My Life ~

2011-02-15T09:37:00.000+08:00

Sometimes people said our lives are just like our dreams

Whatever we dreamed about, it could be happen in reality..

or maybe happened in opposite situation..

I recall back what I dreamed about

when I was aged 5 until now..

It could be funny...but it is my dreams in my life..

From nothing to something..

It could be hard...

but when you get the "product" from your hard work..

You paid with a sweet smile..

Life is too short to date with "sadness" and "emo"..

Live your life with happiness..

Make your life alive with a smile a day..

Dream = Life

Don't make your life a nightmare..

~2011新年大聚会 + 新年趣事~

2011-02-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

说到新年啊..

大家第一个想到的就是红包了吧，对吗？

哈哈..不用害羞啦..大胆承认吧..

我承认我也有想到红包啦..

但是那是第二个想到的东西..

第一个想到的是我的父母和朋友们..

这是真的哦! 请相信我..XD

回到家第一时间就是捉着妈妈问东问西..

问的不是今年红包有多少钱..

而是问他谁谁谁有回来啊?

有买新年的东西了吗？

打扫了吗？

我看起来好像很乖哦？

我不是扮乖哦~是真的咧！！

新年嘛..最不能错过的就是拍照！！

所以啊，今年拍了很多!!

而且今年初一到初四，我都穿裙去拜年哦..XD

朋友们和亲戚们都称赞我列！！

好啦，话不多说..

来些照片给你们看看..

cantik tak?? Please say yes and click "like"..XD

还有哦...

姨丈的孙儿们..

今年的全家福！！O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

最美的还是这张..

但是那些金鱼佬请弹远远去..

不要看这张照片..(#‵′)

~ 我寂寞寂寞就好 ~

2011-01-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

这几天的心情都无法平静下来..

不爱说话，就只是想静静地..

静静地发呆..

和姨丈的回忆一直...

一直都在我脑袋里出现..

虽然自己也尝试放下，

但一想到他在和病魔搏斗的那个辛苦的样子..

心里却有万分的不舍得他..

姨丈葬礼之后的几天..

我都尝试去笑，去和表哥表姐打羽毛球轻松一下心情..

但一旦到了晚上时刻，心情总是有点忧郁..

甚至感到孤单寂寞..

每天晚上都发梦..

有时候还会哭醒..

梦到的都不是什么甜梦..

也不是什么恶梦..

就是一些令到我伤心欲哭的梦..

我就是一个那么感性的人..

动不动就流眼泪..

动不动就不爱说话..

最近还发现了一件事..

原来一瞬间的时间

就足够让两个好朋友变成彼此的陌生人..

有一段时间没和他联络，

昨天竟然因为一些小事而小吵一会儿了..

虽然彼此都道歉了..

但心里总觉得我越来越不了解他了..

我们之间也慢慢出现了一段距离..

可能是时候放弃之前和noob说的话了..

Hebe的歌果然没错..

我寂寞寂寞就好..

这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱

就让我一人去痛到受不了想到快疯掉

死不了就还好..

人本来就寂寞的, 借来的都该还了..

~ 短暂的开心 ~

2011-01-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

人家总说快乐的时间都很短暂..

就像烟花一样..

灿烂的时光就只是在那一瞬间..

我都从来都没有否认这句话..

只是没有想到它会那么快发生在我身上..

2010年12月26日

我开开心心的带着相机参加姨丈的生日晚会

心里都在想一定要帮姨丈拍个美美的全家福..

全家福不是很完整，因为姨丈没有和他的孙子一起拍..

但他还叫我农历新年时一定要帮他拍一个完完整整的全家福..

我就说：“好啊！没问题！包在我身上！”

2011年1月9日傍晚

满心欢喜的拿着新电话到处拍照..

但这一切都只是烟花般的快乐..

"ring...ring..."

妈妈听着电话: "好..好..现在马上过去"

听完电话的妈妈泪水满眶，我就知道有不好的事情发生..

虽然很想问什么事，但最终我还是保持肃静和冷静，载我妈妈和表姐去医院..

然后载那班孩子 (姨丈的孙子)回家冲凉换衣..

但回到家没多久，就看到舅舅满脸悲哀，头低低的走进家..

“没了..没了.."

"什么没了？" 我说

"姨丈..他..急救不成功..离开这世界了"

"什么？！！”

我还来不及反应，我就听到三姨的哭声..

三姨哭成泪人，一直说她没机会和姨丈说最后几句话..

那班小孩看到也跟着哭了起来..

妈妈和阿姨们纷纷都抱着三姨哭了起来..

看到这样的场面，有谁会不哭呢？

眼泪慢慢的从眼眶流了出来..

但为了不要让场面更悲哀，我强忍了眼泪..

拖着那班小孩上车，当起他们的保姆..

那班小孩，生病的生病, 伤心的伤心..

自己却还要忍着情绪，照顾他们..

还记得小时候，姨丈每次都带我去他家玩..

和表哥表姐唱卡拉ok..

表姐还教我弹钢琴呢！

不止如此，我还跟姨丈去早市开档卖水果..

边唱歌边拉客人来买水果..

快乐无比!!

但有谁会想到，就因为那个病魔

那个吃饱没事做的病魔把我姨丈的生命也夺走了..

剩下的就只是那些回忆..

姨丈，我很想念你..

你可以回来吗？

我不想新年又少了一个人陪我们..

去年是阿嫲，今年是你..

你一定不舍得我们的，对吗？

那你赶快起来啊！不要再睡了..

我还没帮你拍完完整整，和你的儿女孙子一起的全家福啊~

姨丈~ (T^T)

穿黄衣的就是我的姨丈，红衣的就是三姨

~ 全家福 ~

~ 姨丈的孙子 ~

~ New Year 2011 ~

2011-01-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

Woo~

2010 is gone and here come 2011!!

This year is my very first time went for countdown concert with my parent..

So so so unbelievable that my parent will act like those younger and join this countdown activity..

They even wanna try to play the bubble spray with those youngers on the street..LOL

here is the evidence for my statement..~\(≧▽≦)/~

SEE! what they wear on their head??

Is a mouse ear's hairband..LOL

By the way, this is not my idea but my dad's idea!!

Unexpected right?

Besides, we also went into The Curve to snap some photos as well..^^

see what my dad try to do to my mom?? XD

* the 2 person who are wearing pink and blue shirt are my aunties*

Even though this year countdown I am back to single..

BUT I am not alone..My family is always by my side..

They are the one who always be there for me..

Thanks Dad..

Thanks Mom..

I really love you all..muacks..

Last but not least..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 !!

~ It's ChRisTmAs MoNtH~

2010-12-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

♪ Jingle Bell Jingle Bell~♫

♬ Jingle All The Way~♪

IS CHRISTMAS !!

What will you think about when talking about Christmas??

Present?

Your lover?

Family?

Friends?

For sure, when there is festival season, I will miss my family and friends a lots !

But I also will not miss out any shopping chance!!

Muahaha..Shopping is not the most important..

BUT....

is the CHRISTMAS CARDS!

Every year of Christmas, I will buy a lot of Christmas card instead of clothes..

You know why?

Because the cards are soooooo cute and special!

So far I have my own Christmas Card Collection even though is not a lot!

Wanna see who are them??

Hehe...Here you go!

The First one..

No doubt...is a 3D Christmas Card! ♥

All the pictures I show later is all my 3D cards collection..^^

~ 2nd card ~

~ 3rd Card ~

~ 4th ~

~ 5th ~

~ 6th ~

~ 7th ~

~ 8th ~

The special of this card is when you turn the round thing that wrote "MERRY CHRISTMAS",

the Santa Claus and the Deers will move..~\(≧▽≦)/~

~ 9th ~

This is a 3D Christmas Tree Card! Nice right??

The following card is the most complicated card ever!

Because you need to DIY..

Let's see.. O(∩_∩)O~~

Before all of these become a card...

and

This is after they transform to a cute Christmas Card!

Cute right?? Please say YES! haha..

Every coach of the train will bring you a small present..

From a toy train to a Snowman!

This card I bought last year Christmas..

Until today only show to you all..hehe..^^

Last but not least, I will show you all the Christmas decoration in shopping Mall..

~ MERRY GO ROUND at Mid Valley ~

~ Mid Valley ~

~ Mid-Valley~

~ e-Curve ~

~ The Curve ~

~ The Castle in The Curve ~

All the decoration are very nice..^^ Like it a lot !

Others shopping mall decoration will upload soon !

Wait for me ya! ^^

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

~ NeW BorN BaBy ~

2010-12-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

I am pregnant???

No ~

I adopted a baby??

No ~

Who is the father of the baby??

His father is my father...

You got a new born sibling??

No..his is a non-living thing... haha

*KbOoM!*

Wonder who is my new baby??

Be patient...

Patient~

and

HERE IT IS!!

TaDa!

My first ever very expensive baby~

My orangie badminton racket!

It also considered is my first ever badminton racket..

This is mainly because last time I don't even have my own racket

And always borrow from my cousin..

and last time I didn't work so can't buy myself a racket..

But now~ is different!

I earn money myself

So..decided to "adopt" a baby..

Hmmm....still thinking to give him a name..

Hikari? Since he is in shiny orange colour just like the light..

Okay! set! My new born baby is called HIKARI!

Wakaka...

But first of all have to thank my dad for sponsoring me a bit to buy Hikari..

So tomorrow will be the first day I play badminton with my Hikari..

Oh ya! Today got 2 happy gatherings..

Which is with my SC Company "colleagues" and my old friend who just came back from Melbourne..

Thanks to those who organized these gatherings..

Really enjoy meeting with old friends...(^-^)

So now got to off to bed and start my revision..

EXAM is COMING SOON!!!

ah zha! zha! zha!

Have to fight with those notes.. *p/s: NOT facebook ar*

is NOTES!

Okay la! Ganbatte Kudasai!!

Ah Zha~~~~!

~My 1st Ever Movie Event~

2010-12-02T23:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my first ever working as a part timer for movie event

which the movie name is....

The Chronicles of NARNIA : The Voyage of the Dawn Treader

WooHoo~~ is a very interesting and fun job..

Apart from that, guess who I met in the event??

is....

EAN and MOOTS from Hitz FM...

WOOO~~!!

For those who don't know who are them, very sorry la..

but...for those who know them very well, you gonna jealous me!!

Muahaha....

They are working together with me but they work as the Emcee of the event...cool right??

Ean is super duper cute with his red hair and muscular body...awwwh~ *shy*

He was trying to fit himself in kids princess dress yesterday..

And ends up get stucked and need my help to take off the dress...haha

p/s: when I try to help him take off the dress, I tercubit him..lol

Besides, I also had the chance to play on the polaroid camera which I dream to have one for so loooong..

This pink camera was the thing I need to in-charge and handle in the event...

Because once again..I am the camera girl for the whole event...lol

Blue camera was in-charged by Justin who is my partner in the event..hehe..

Anyone play with polaroid camera before?? No??

wow..then you gonna have a try on it..

It is super duper cute and awesome!!

After you snap, you can get the photo immediately which will come out from the top of the camera..

I have one polaroid photo but too bad...

Can't show it here because my face is too ugly with the make up..argghh..

And the final thing is....

MAGGIE!! I got the 2 tickets for you and me!!

The ticket of The Chronicles of NARNIA : The Voyage of the Dawn Treader!!

Muahaha..so we can go watch the movie right after our Pendidikan Moral exam!! YUIHOO!!

I plan already..We go to Mid-Valley to have our movie then go to Jusco to have our Japanese meal...

Hmmmm...sound nice right??

Anyway, all the people out there are also invited to join us but for the movie ticket...*cough*

ERhemm~ very sorry la..you guys have to buy your own..Because I only got 2 free tickets..

But I think you won't mind..as long as we have fun right?? (^-^)

Okay! Is time to go for bed..

Today is very very tired as I need to rush to Ipoh Specialist Hospital just after I reached hometown..

This is mainly because my uncle was sent to hospital..so today I need to pick him up..

And send him back to Teluk Intan..

So until now only I back from there...is tired~

But it worth because is for my lovely uncle..

Hope he will get well soon..

I will pray hard for my uncle..

God..please help my uncle to get well..

I am sincerely praying to you..

Thanks God..

Okay la...good night everyone..

Have a nice and sweet dream ya..

Sleep tight~ muackss

~ HOTTEST THING ~

2010-11-28T15:36:00.000+08:00

Hey hey..

Wanna know what is the hottest thing that I mentioned???

Please be prepare yourself in a calm and healthiest situation..

This is mainly because you may get heart attack or nose bleeding after you saw it..

Get Ready??

huiyooo...~ hot or not???

Heart beat got become faster? This is a print adv from my group for Triumph's T-shirt Bra..

Guys~! No need to feel shame to see this adv la..no need to hide your wolf's tail..haha..

Explanation : Tagline for our product is "intimaCy, Comfort and Confident".

which mean the 3 Cs for a woman..

Guys have 5 Cs which are Condo, Cash, Credit card, Car and Cellphone

But what a woman need is not that 5 Cs that guys have but the 3 Cs that mentioned above..

So once women have their confident, they get their wanted guys..

While guys get their confident girls..

nice right?? Please say YES!!

Last but not least, I will also attached the TVC for our products that conducted by Maggie!!

Triumph TVC ----> click me!

~ 特别的日子 ~

2010-11-17T09:34:00.005+08:00

昨天（16.11.2010）对我来说原本是个很特别的日子..

但这次不再是了..

大家都变成了彼此生活中的过客..

虽然回忆还是那么的清晰..

但始终变成了过去..

昨晚回到了我们回忆中最重要的地方..

全部东西都保持不变..

但唯一变的是我们..

昨晚真的非常谢谢我的谊家准备了一桌的美味菜肴给我们当晚餐...

真的很好吃哦!

但有个很奇怪的道理

就是我的谊家说第一次到别人家吃饭..

一定要添饭！

我的天啊~！

我一听到这句话，表情有点傻去..

但没办法啦..家有家规..

我就只好乖乖的听老人家的话，去添几口饭意思意思一下咯..

不过我真的吃不下了...~~o(>_<)o ~~

我谊弟（健宏）和我们在他家吃晚餐 O(∩_∩)O~

我的谊妹，慧盈和她的家人..~\(≧▽≦)/~

不过昨天最高兴的是我昨晚被4个二年级生的小女孩强吻了~!

哈哈哈..我还真的有点被他们吓到.. O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

昨晚我们下乡团表演完毕，

我已走向后台，竟然被他们二年级生的小女孩围着，抢着说要我的电话号码...

我顿时觉得如有大明星的感觉..哈哈..~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦

然后又被他们拉到礼堂后面，叫我陪他们跳舞..

跳完了，又叫我教他们掌声..

哈哈..整个老师的模样..

我的朋友还说我是骗小孩的怪姐姐..*炸到*

教完了，有其中一个小女孩就说要回家了..

那其他那3个也跟着说要回家了..

还以为和他们说个再见就没事了..

但最出乎意料的的是，有个小女孩过来抱我然后"强吻“ 我!! *惊(⊙o⊙)！！*

另外两个也跟着他这么做..

我就..er...好啦..就goodbye kiss 嘛..

没事~没事~

但第一个小女孩说要回家了没被亲到..

结果倒回来和我说：“姐姐，我要kiss你~”

我整个人就傻去...

不过最后还是让她亲了..

朋友说我无意间夺了他们的初吻..

我的天啊~！！又不是我想要的..是他们要亲我啊..

我才是“受害者” 咧...O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

我们表演的时候..~~(>_<)~~

朋友说我骗小孩的时候..*晕* ╮(╯_╰)╭

看到他们那么开心，我自己也觉得很开心..(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……

虽然1116不再是属于我的特别号码..

但它毕竟给了我一个很好回忆..

谢谢谊家的晚餐

谢谢4个强吻我的小女孩..

谢谢你这一年内给我那么多美好的回忆..

真的谢谢你们把我的生活点缀得那么美..

再见了，1116..

~ 逃避 ~

2010-11-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

已经过了一个月又12天..

要说我计较吗？连时间都数的那么清楚..

是啊..无可否认，我就是那么计较..

我计较为什么我们只可以在一起那么短暂..

虽然过了一个月，但我还是无法面对你..

有些习惯还是改不来..

习惯性的看你的照片...

习惯性的看你的部落格..

习惯性的提起你的名字..

我还是放不下..我还在逃避着..

为什么？为什么你的影子还在我脑子里徘徊？

我明明已经没有留下任何和你有关的东西在身边了..

明明把你的东西都退还了..

明明已经把自己的心加了锁..

但是为什么? 为什么我还是把你的东西记得那么清楚?

为什么我还是逃不了你的影子？

为什么我每次看到你不开心，我还是会心疼？

我真的不想在这样下去..

我还痴心妄想的以为会有和你复合的一天..

我知道我是在发梦..

我是在逃避..

我知道这一切都不是真实，一切都已经破碎了..

我还记得我的梦想，但梦想已经抛弃了我..

我和你在一起的梦想永远都不会实现..

因为它已经离我远远的..

它不会再回来我身边了..

~ Return ~

2010-10-19T23:56:00.000+08:00

Already 3 weeks I struggle for something..

Is time to go back to my own life..

As what Joey said, is time to live for myself..

Just return everything to him..

But there is 1 thing I still can't return to him..

The thing is the memories, the lessons that he taught me..

All of these will be keep in the deepest place of my heart..

Thanks to you if you got read this post..

I know I am not as good as you want..

Sorry for all the mistake that I make last time..

Sorry for all the trouble I brought to you..

You deserved for a better one..

Anyway, thanks for all the memories you brought to me..

The memories really fill my life with more perfection..

So now I have to wake up from dream..

People said sweet dream doesn't last long..

Last time I will said NO

But now I will agree with that..because I experienced it..

So...

Wake Up, Pikachu!

Wake Up, Sakai!

You need to move on your life..

Return to your reality world and continue the adventure..

You can do it..

~ SaKaI之诗集 1 ~

2010-10-14T11:10:00.000+08:00

欲见人成双成对，

形影不离合一对，

故他人已心不对，

孤身单影或必对，

花开花落乃常事，

春来冬去乃凡事，

合合离离必经事，

乐乐悲悲需续事。

寻寻觅觅画个圈，

兜兜转转形个圈，

郎君淑女情中圈，

哥情妹意牵心圈，

皇上不急太监急，

寂寞单身何必急，

有缘无分无需急，

命中注定解心急。

~ DrEaM 梦~

2010-10-07T11:39:00.000+08:00

昨天我既然梦到这样一个情景..

不是噩梦，也不算什么世外桃源..

我梦到我和他复合了..

之后的东西都变得模糊..

我也记不起了..

是甜梦吗？

我和他复合？可能性真的很低..

甚至是负数..

陈启盈，醒来吧..

不要再做白日梦了..

过去了就过去了..

现在闭关在自己的心，专心上课吧！

~ 留言 2 ~

2010-09-28T13:58:00.000+08:00

你成功了..

成功把我的心都敲碎了..

碎到很离谱..

但我还是要谢谢你..

谢谢你让我成长的机会..

谢谢你之前为我所做的一切..

一切都完了

我不恨你

但希望可以和你做回朋友..

诚心的祝福你..

~ 月亮圆·月亮圆~

2010-09-22T10:16:00.004+08:00

♬月亮圆~月亮圆~

月亮照在我的家..

没有春夏秋冬的家..

流传千年~♪

听到这首歌就知道是吃月饼的时候啦~

中秋节快乐~♥

唉~又不知道第几个中秋节没有和家人庆祝了..

虽然如此，我在这里还是有和朋友们自己庆祝..

因为个个都因为考试而被逼留在异乡..

想念家人但又不能回家..

真的痛苦..T.T

昨天小歪就一直吵要提灯笼..

其实我也很想啦..哈哈 ^0^

我很想念我家的那只大鱼灯笼列~

（妈妈应该还收着吧？？）

但没办法带我的大鱼出来，所以昨晚就买了一些纸灯笼来玩..

看到了五颜六色，七彩缤纷的小灯笼..

心情也特别的好..O(∩_∩)O

除此之外，昨晚还是我还第一次玩孔明灯咧！

看到孔明灯成功的起飞，把我们所写的愿望带到天上去，

那时候的自己特别有感触..(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……

女生就是这么感性的啦..

不然男生哪里会那么容易骗到女生..哈哈哈 ~\(≧▽≦)/~

昨晚在孔明灯上我写了很多愿望，

包括：

1）希望自己变瘦变得更漂亮~ 拜托神明，这个愿望一定要实现..O(∩_∩)O嗯！】

2）希望Daddy的生意日渐兴旺，越来越好

3）希望自己的成绩可以达到 CGPA 3.0以上【无可否认，我是好胜..我要打败一个人..(#‵′)】

4) 希望他每天开开心心，健健康康

5）希望我的单身朋友可以找到他们的幸福

6）希望我的家人和朋友都平平安安，开开心心

7）最后希望世界和平，没有战争！~\(≧▽≦)/~

哈哈..好像有点过火了，写太多了..（希望神明不要介意 ~~o(>_<)o ~~）

不过这些都是我心里的愿望..

不写白不写，反正孔明灯就是帮人实现愿望啊..嘻嘻（自我安慰一下)

不过真的祈求天上的天使或神可以帮我实现愿望..

我很想每天看到他的笑容，

我很想每天看到我的朋友幸福快乐..

我很想我的家人没有烦恼，没有病痛，开开心心的过日子...

我很想每天翻开报纸都是好的新闻..

神啊神，天使啊天使，希望你们都收到我们的愿望..

Soo Teng 和 Eyin

哈哈，我的室友哦~ wendy

我们第一个的红色孔明灯~ 要起飞噜~

第二个绿色孔明灯~ 嘻嘻

用蜡烛排成的爱心~ ♥

看到吗？灯笼和月亮在一起陪我们度过中秋...超爱这张照片~♥

最后就是丑八怪的我..哈哈..

祝大家中秋节快乐~♥

正在考试的朋友们，加油哦！！♥ O(∩_∩)O嗯！

♥ 浪花一朵朵 ♥ （Sakai 版本）

2010-09-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

啦啦啦~ 啦啦啦~ 啦啦啦~
我要你陪着我，看着那莉清水中游..
慢慢的爬到她身上，数着脚毛一条条..
你不要害怕，你不会寂寞，
傻佬一直陪在你左右让你乐悠悠..

日子一天一天过，我们会慢慢长大..
我不管你懂不懂我在唱什么..噢~噢
我知道有一天，傻佬，一定会爱上你..
因为我觉得他真的很不错~ 噢...

时光匆匆匆匆溜走，也也也也不回头..
莉清变成老太婆..
哎哟~那那那那个时候，
他他他他也也已经是个糟老头..

啦啦啦~ 啦啦啦~ 啦啦啦~

知道这首歌的人一定边看边笑的~
哈哈~

~ 留言 1 ~

2010-09-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

不懂几时开始冷谈了..
不懂几时手机开始也不再响了..
不懂几时开始你的信息不再出现..
不懂几时开始你不再像以前一样那么的关心我了..

我的认真，在你眼里变得不认真..
我的坦白，在你脑里变成烦恼..
我的关心，在你耳里变得罗嗦..

是不是你不再关心我？
是不是你不再想我了？
还是感情变淡了？

我该怎么做？
我真的很想念你..
不要再这样冷淡的对待我好吗？
我真的不想要这样..
就当我真的是个小孩，需要别人每天的关怀..
好吗？

~ Bad Day or Lucky day?? ~

2010-09-14T13:03:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of exam..
Haih...Really bad day..
Morning before go to campus, my foot pain until I cant really walk well..
but luckily I reached campus before it rains heavily..
Then my friend involved in terrible accident at LDP highway..
luckily she didn't get any injured..
but her car car really hurt lo..

Next, my another friend, Maggie also quite bad luck today..
Her bus break down when on her way to campus..
She almost cant reach campus on time..
but luckily she managed to get another bus..

During the exam, I really really don't have any luck..
What I spot doesn't come out..
Haih...but luckily still manage to answer all the questions..
but I think my creativity is 0%
Hope it won't drag my grade..T.T

Last but not least, I wish that tomorrow won't be like today..
I really feel so helpless toward myself already..
please just don't make me feel hopeless toward my exam..
Thanks..

~隐形人的痛~

2010-08-26T15:01:00.000+08:00

突然觉得自己是个隐形人..

当别人需要我的帮助时，我才会出现..

我真的很想脱下我那隐形的外皮..

参与其他人，一起玩，一起闹..

但很难吧？命运吗？

每次换来的都是一次次的心疼..

觉得原来我的生存是多余的..根本没人会理会..

我想我累了..

我很想逃离

我不想再忍受那种无形的痛了..

~Fighting Umbrella Corporation~

2010-08-23T18:25:00.001+08:00

WOW~ really cant expect that "Resident Evil : Afterlife" will come out as a movie and is going in the screen at 10 September..Oh my god!! I think this will be super duper nice as all the action movement, the real look of characters and the most important is it comes in 3D..SUPERB!

If I am Alice or Claire in Resident Evil, I will create a chemical medicine to those who haven't get affected by the virus for temporary avoid themselves from getting the virus. After that I will give higher salary to hire those scientist who work for evil Umbrella Corporation and ask them to create the solutions for those victims who turn to Undead. After that, I will ask the scientist to invent a new type of umbrella which are TOTALLY different with current style of umbrella as to protect those people. Finally, I will kill the head of the evil Umbrella Corporation together with the top heroes..

HEY YA! this is the poster of Resident Evil : Afterlife 3D..Can't wait to watch it...

And here are all my heroes..LET's REMOVE evil Umbrella Corporation...

~伤害~

2010-08-22T08:18:00.000+08:00

原来在事情的另一方面，我竟然伤害了另一个人..

虽然说我已经做了决定..

但原来这决定伤害了我一个的朋友..

看到这位朋友那么的痛苦，我的心的却有点动摇..

但我也不能改变决定来伤害另一个人...

再多一个人为我痛苦..

为什么你不早和我说你的感受呢？

为什么直到现在你才告诉我？

虽然说我老早就知道你的感受，

但我始终想听你亲口对我说..

现在一切也太迟了..

不过我希望我们还是想以前一样..

不会受这件事的影响..

好吗？

在这，我想说声对不起..

~Desa Theme Park~

2010-08-08T11:20:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to a UniColl Acer Splash Challenge at Desa Theme Park..
Is kinda fun since have a long period did not went to water theme park and enjoy myself in the water.. XD
Although this theme park is quite small compare to others water theme park like Sunway but it do bring the joy and fun to me and my friends..

This Splash Challenge was organized by Acer and Intel.. And the GRAND prize is a Acer latest model laptop but this laptop is not gonna to give us..is to UTAR Department of Student Affair..*kinda not fair*

There are 10 challenges in this Splash Challenge..
   1st -- Water LRT Express
   2nd -- Tarzan on Float
   3rd -- Waiter in water
   4th -- Formula 1 *old school version*
   5th -- Dizzy Stick
*erm..very sorry that I forgot the name of the other 5 challenges, will update you guys if I get the name..haha*

So, UTAR got around 30++ representatives and each game at least need 10 people to play..so we separate ourself into different groups as to fulfill the terms and condition of each games..the 1st challenge I took part was the Water LRT Express..this game need 20 people to play..

We are given a combined tube to put ourselves inside..then we have to walk in the water from the starting point to the end and then turn back without turn the tube..LOL...

At first we though we are the winner of this game..but who knows at the second round, we were being disqualified because got 2 people in a same tube..oh, NO~! we are the first group to reach the end even though the other colleges' representatives keep on bully us on the way to the end..

   *Oh ya..talk about the bully, the other colleges' representative keep on use the tube to block our way..or use the tube to crash ours tube..we were like the "sandwich" when both side players keep on squeezed us..=.= *

Then the other challenge that I took part is the Tarzan on Float.. I guess you guys know what is this game about. We need to catch the string along the way we go to the end and we need to step on the floats which on the water..is kinda difficult but FUN !! haha..Because my legs are quite short..so I need to open my legs very widely as to reach the other float..my friend said she saw my legs is almost become 1 line ( *In mandarin, this pose is called 一字马..*) and she also told me that other representatives kinda feel surprise when i do the pose..What a "IMPRESSIVE" pose...LOL~

At the end, wanna show you guys something that I did the first time in my life..haha

Ta~Da...The first Henna I do on my left hand...kaka..a very beautiful rose..*like*
and the second 1 is the....

TA~DA! The body painting on my right hand...
this is a very very nice painting...and I like the artist's brushes that use to paint this picture..
very unique!

All these Henna and Body Painting is done after I finish my challenges..*cos this painting will gone if I touched water* Anyway, nice right? * Say YES!* hahaha...

Yesterday after back from Desa Theme Park, all of us felt so tired but we do enjoy the day...gained another sweet memory with my friends...o(n_n)o

~Bribe~

2010-07-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

This few days, I received quite a lot of bribe from my friends..
haha...The first bribe is from ah yen and suven...
They ask me to become a temporary driver to pick up their friend from LRT station..
So when they come back from their trip, they gave me this..

TA~DA!! a packet of sweets which in a fast food paper bag..
anyway, it is very cute..^^ Thanks ah yen and suven...like it a lots...haha

Then the second bribe is from my senior@my CSS member..
She ask me to accompany her to go for a movie..*but actually is be a "light bulb"
haha..but I really enjoy to go for the movie..because it is a very nice movie which named INCEPTION..
Know what movie is that:? I sure you all know about this movie..If not yet watch, then now quickly go for it..
and the bribe from her is....

TA~DA~ 3 Ferrero Rocher Chocolates...haha..kinda feel like I am a bad girl who always ask for something..but the fact is I didn't ask for it..Is she willing to give me...by the way, thank you senior..haha.. earn another sweet thing again...XD

And last but not least, I get a box of Japanese sweets from my boss, Belinda Chee (Famous 8tv Quickie host + Olay's spokesperson)..huiyoo..Today after I finish my job in her house, she gave me the salary and this...

TA~DA~ POIFULL sweets which from Japan..wahahaha
Kinda feel like wanna fly to the sky when I received this..
Cute right?? Haha..I like it so much..Thanks Belinda..She is really a friendly person..and she like to laugh..as innocent as a child..I mean she is cute and adorable...^^

FUIYOO~ get alot of sweet things from my friends and my boss..How am I gonna finish all these ya?? Cham lo..My diet plan sure cant work already when all these things exist in front of me..LOL~

~My PJ room ~

2010-07-16T13:33:00.006+08:00

Few days ago, my 2 lovely room mates and I suddenly think to decorate our bedroom as to make the bedroom look comfortable and decorative..^^

So, we decided to go to pasar malam buy some wall stickers to decorate our room..
At the end we bought 6 stickers which cost us RM5 each person..

And.....TA-DA!!
our room is completely decorated..

my bed side...^^

My "workplace"...

Haha..so lovely...so comfortable right??
when you sleep or even work also wont so stressful..

So I strongly recommended you guys should make your own bedroom so comfortable..
haha..maybe guys can decorate your room with some cool sticker and not this girlish type stickers..

Now I damn love my bedroom..every time go back also feel like being at my hometown's room..o(n_n)o

~终于~

2010-07-07T09:11:00.000+08:00

Hakuna Matata Hawaiian Musical Night终于都告一段落了..
我终于都把这个event办成了...开心^^
现在要好好的把书念好，
把成绩搞好，
把友情维持好，
把爱情调理好，
把家人关心好...

希望朋友们原谅我一直推掉他们约会...
希望他可以原谅我没时间陪着他度过他人生中的喜怒哀乐...
希望家人原谅我很少回家陪他们..

我一直都很想念我的朋友
我一直都很想念他
我一直都很想念家人

现在终于可以和朋友出去逛街
现在终于可以有多点时间和他在一起
现在终于可以回家陪陪家人

我终于可以把心头大石给放下了..
希望这一切都不会太迟
我会尽我的能力补偿我的过错
尤其是家人还有他..

一个月没回家，家里发生了很多不愉快的事情
心里很内疚，很后悔，没帮到什么
看着家人那么的不开心，心酸酸的..
一个月里都没什么时间和他聊，最近他都过的很压力
心很痛，但自己却帮不到什么，真的很失败
看着他还要在别人面前逞强，心真的很难受

对不起..

♥ SC Company Annual Gathering ♥

2010-06-27T11:38:00.000+08:00

WooHoo~ sorry for the late post..Finally get the SC Company Annual Gathering from Facebook..
Haha...This gathering is happened at last Friday and Saturday (18.5.2010 & 19.5.2010)

Venue : Times Square & Genting Highland
Time: 10am - 10pm
People involved: 8 SC (Lee Cheng, Lee Jie, Sye Jia, Xiao Yen, Pui Juan, Yee Mun, Pei Cen and Me)
Organizer: Lee Cheng & Lee Jie

Haha..nothing much can elaborate, let's see the crazy pictures that we have snapped..woohoo!!

Above: the 4 leng lui..hahaha (From left: Lee Jie, Lee Cheng, Me and Sye Jia)

Below: the 4 soh poh..wahahaha ( From left: Yen, Juan, Yee Mun and Cen)

Actually all girls are pretty la...^^v

LOL~ This was my idea..Do you realize we all wearing the same shirt?? wahaha
We even help DiGi to advertise..=.= * Hey DiGi, pay us back the advertising fees!*

In the bus...we still continue camwhole.. wakaka..This is so called "GIRLS"

Guess who I saw when I just stepped in the INDOOR of Genting?? Is my idol, PIKACHU!!

Oh My God~ i never thought I will see him that day at that place..He is so cute..The cutest part is

they play the pikachu's voice when he is attacking people..Pika...CHU!!!! wahaha..

When I saw Pikachu, he is playing with the host and the kids by attacking host which act as a monster..

haha.. Pikachu release thunder shock and the monster faint immediately...He is so STRONG!! XD

See above this picture, then you know how shock am I when saw my idol there...hehe

Back to childhood time...wahaha..don't jealous if you cant ride on it...XD

Sorry la..I know I am not cute..=P

The FIRST thing we did when we were at outdoor is not play the games but BUY SWEET POTATOES~

wahaha..kinda funny right?

Seriously tell you guys something, I don't know my butt is so ATTRACTIVE..Even girls also like my butt..

PLEASE see the picture below..Xiao Yen was hugging my butt and sleep on it.. OMG! you know what she said? She told me" Eh, Zih yin..your butt so comfortable yet so 翘 la..( 翘 = so upward)..I like it a lot!!"

(=.=") <-- this is the face expression I gave to her after I heard that...

MY BUTT!!

Last but no least, is my most "HANDSOME" part..so called " yao yeng"..hahaha

but one of my Facebook friend say is very chu lu..mean very rude la.. but I don't care...lalalalala...

wahaha..this is the 50% REAL me..^^v

Before end of the day, actually SC Company got record a video named " World War 3"

but because of the video content is so violence, so we decide not to post up..wahahah..

* Because if those guys saw these video, then no guys will pick us up as their girlfriend le..*

Anyway, that day was super duper tired but is hyper super duper HAPPY ^^

~投降~

2010-06-23T02:11:00.000+08:00

是我笨..
是我没耐心..
是我冲动..
我现在投降了..
我不敢尝试失去你的感觉..
虽然我不知道你和我在一起时，是否开心..
但我想告诉你，和你在一起的时光，
是我人生中最快乐的时刻..

所以我投降了..
对不起~

~心里的话~

2010-06-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

最近爱用华语来写部落格..
怎么说它是最可以表达我的心情的语言..
很少会出现词穷的现象..

今天突然有些感触..
想把这些感触都写下来..

第一个感触:

"那种心痛的感觉，有谁会懂？失眠的夜里，脑袋里想的东西，有谁会了解？有人把女人归为"思想家",但又有谁会知道女人想的东西全是只为了想要得到少许的注意？有人把男人归为"机器人",但有谁知道男人心里其实是个正在找自己梦想的纯真小男孩？多关心身边的人，掏出你的心细心聆听他们心里的话，那所谓的”骗话“就可以永远消失..男人女人就不需再戴面具面对自己心爱的人.."

人总是以为自己是最了解别人的那一个，但其实他们都不是，最了解的最终还是自己本身。人往往喜欢帮人做决定，就会说这全都是为她/他好。但其实有没想过他人的感受? 有没有问过他们的意见? 有没有听听其实他们心里想要的是什么？不要以为自己认为好的东西，就是会对别人有用。各人有各人的思想和性格，你也不想有一天其他人对你这样，帮你决定一切。

第二个感触:

如果有一天你有了伴侣或者你结婚了，你的另一半每次在做决定之前都要问你的意见，你会有何感受？觉得他在尊重你吗？觉得他烦吗？还是觉得他不懂得独立吗？各人有各人的想法，但两人的思想不同的确可以从不角度去看待一件事情，这样做出来的决定至少消除了一些不必要的麻烦。但有多少个情侣或夫妻会这样想过呢？超过30%夫妻离婚或情侣分手都是因为思想不合，意见不同。明明就爱着另一半，但却因为一些所谓的”意见不合“，却造成了自己生命中的一个遗憾。可惜吗？明明就可以利用两人不同的思想，创造出一个与众不同的梦想，但因为没有沟通，一手摧毁了这个美好的梦想。可怜吗？

第三个感触:

如果..如果我还是以前的我，那该多好..最近被人说我长大了，mental age超出了actual age..我该高兴好呢？还是伤心？以前的我，总是有事没事都大笑一餐..但来到了这才发现原来自己是多么的孤独..虽然心中仍然存在着他们，但身边想找个一个知心也没有..有人说我思想复杂，没人会猜得透..这一点我可以承认，但如果有的选，我自己也不想这样..妈妈总是说我笨，什么东西都容易被人猜穿..但却有人说我思想复杂..我到底是哪一种？？有人可以答我吗？或许我真的不会想，时常就想些有的无的，搞到他也烦了..自己也开始讨厌了自己..明明就想要让他开心，但原来这全都只是我一厢情愿..我是个没自信心的人，所以我的心很容易被动摇..上次有个朋友问我，如果他突然有了另一个，我会怎样？那时的我，突然心也怕了起来，目瞪口呆的不知如何回答..我到底会变成怎样？？像戏剧里德女主角一样，一哭二闹三上吊吗？我不懂..这几天长失眠的,脑袋里一直想着这个问题..想爆了头，还是没答案..我..会怎样呢？

~愚蠢~

2010-06-04T15:40:00.000+08:00

俗语：“良心当狗肺”..
我现在总算明白这个谚语所谓的意思..
妈妈曾经也骂过我，说我笨，太过天真..
往往就会被人当纸巾一样，用过就丢..
但那时的我却反驳妈妈所说的一切, 我就说真心对待别人，别人就会真心对待我..
哪里知道原来一切都是假的!!! 都是假的!!!

还以为大家都是坐同一条船，以后就会是像一家人..
但原来下船后，我们就是一盘散沙，各有各派~
我以为曾经一起努力过，大家就会更亲密..
但原来也不是..
下船后，才知道无事不登三宝殿..
有事的时候才会想起你，要你帮忙..
没事的时候，就算看到你就当你是透明的..
招呼也没有一声..

当问起他们的时候，才来搞“假”内讧..
在我面前说B的坏话，然后又在别人面前赞B..
你们都当我什么都不懂吗？
要不是找到一些蛛丝马迹，我都还被你们蒙在鼓里呢..
当一个真心的朋友真的有那么难吗？
真的要互相利用才算是朋友吗？
没有利用价值了就是垃圾吗？

曾经的“有福同享有难同当” 又去了哪里？
曾经的承诺跑到哪里了？
你们都很假!!
不要在我面前说什么承诺，答应我什么东西了..
你们要分派就分吧..
我每次扮不懂，扮天真..
你们就越吃越上..搞一个东西都要神神秘秘..
很了不起吗？
我就是蠢，我就是笨，我就是白痴..
相信你们会做个真心朋友..
原来全都是假的..
对你们我也无话可说..
你们要这样搞散沙的话，就继续搞吧..
就当我这个笨蛋还是个笨蛋吧~

~充实的假期~ ^^

2010-05-31T16:07:00.001+08:00

无可否认，这次的假期我实在是忙得不可开交..
不是忙event,而是忙去旅行..
哈哈..从我的考试一完毕，我就和我的"生死之交", Maggie 去大庆特庆..
虽然知道成绩出来会死的很难看，但还是要对自己好一点嘛..
所以就和她去BBQ Chicken吃大餐~ ^^v 超开心..

接下来的行程就是如以下:
星期五(14.5.2010)：刚考完试，吃大餐

星期六(15.5.2010)：和Joyce去Lowyat 还有 Times Square逛街

星期日(16.5.2010)：马六甲一日游 *这天一直吃不停，快要撑死了 =.= *

星期一(17.5.2010)：Shah Alam 考察一日游 *但谁知那个Taman Botanic Malaysia竟然休假,白去一趟..气死了!!*

星期二 - 星期四(18.5.2010 - 20.5.2010)：槟城 + 怡保 3天2夜 *这3天还真有点搞到肠胃不舒服，因为3天都从早吃到晚~肥死我了!! T.T *

星期五 - 星期日(21.5.2010 - 23.5.2010)：3天2夜的Shah Alam绿色生活营 *这3天跳舞跳到很开心，有人竟然和我斗摇屁股...哈哈..笑死我了 XD..不止这样，我们的生活营还上了电视哦^^v *

哈哈..是不是很充实咧？？读书都没那么勤力咧..我自己也快要累垮了，但十分的开心。这几天让我成长了不少，也肥了不少（T.T）但肥了是次要，最重要就是我好久都没大笑了..这几天我发现我真的笑了，而且笑得像傻婆一样，快要进青山园那种~哈哈…是好事来的^^ 今天是开学的第一天，虽然有点懒惰，但还是很开心..因为有人说我瘦了!!哈哈..多亏我在家每天都摇2小时的呼啦圈..整整摇了1个星期，果然有效哦^^

唉..希望这个学期的成绩可以帮我争口气..我不想再拿上个学期那种烂成绩了..T.T

槟城的海边 + 日落..赞 ^^

怡保三宝同的风水照..自然风景哦^^

Shah Alam的Taman Botanical Malaysia..另一个可以享受大自然的地方^^

♥ 母亲节快乐 ♥

2010-05-09T14:01:00.000+08:00

不知不觉有到了充满爱的节日..
那就是母亲节..
今年的母亲节，因为考试，我无法与妈咪度过..
妈咪，非常的对不起哦..
在这里我和你说声：“妈咪，母亲节快乐! 我爱你!"
这番话，虽然不能在现实中告诉你，但只少我以字表达..

母亲节除了会想起妈妈，我还想起了我已去世的啊嘛..
我超想念我的啊嘛..
虽然她不在我的身边，但每逢节日，我都会想起她..
想着她如何准备节庆的东西..
想着她叫我们这几个小瓜做纸鹤，纸船..
怀念她煮的菜肴..
怀念她的一切一切..
啊嘛，你在那里好吗？
要好好照顾自己哦..
最后，我想对我啊嘛说:
"啊嘛，母亲节快乐..."

~话太普通~

2010-05-02T08:45:00.000+08:00

特别想和你们分享一首歌..

季欣霈: 牛肉
農夫: 紐約
季欣霈: 六點半
農夫: 路點伴
季欣霈: 我喜歡你
農夫: 我是honey
季欣霈: 你講乜吖?

農夫: 我普通話太普通
怪小時候不用功
我喜歡你卻不能溝通
情話在我心中卻卡在喉嚨
我普通話太普通
怪小時候不用功
我說廣東話你聽不懂你
季欣霈:識聽唔識講吖
農夫：姑娘愛怎么不走過來
對面的女孩都已經看過來看過來
讓我心花為你朵朵的開
我想帶你去山頂看夜景
我要帶你去中環shopping
你要 (粵)去邊我就去邊
這些話怎樣說才行
季欣霈: 你喜歡我不喜歡為何你一見我就發呆
喜歡我不喜歡為什么你都不說出來

農夫: 因為
我普通話太普通
怪小時候不用功
我喜歡你卻不能溝通
情話在我心中卻卡在喉嚨
我普通話太普通
怪小時候不用功
我說廣東話你聽不懂你
季欣霈:識聽唔識講吖
農夫：姑娘怎么不走過來
對面的女孩都已經看過來看過來
看我心花為你朵朵的開
我想帶你去好吃的茶餐廳
我要帶你去蘭桂坊honey
你要 (粵)去邊我就去邊
這些話怎樣說才行
季欣霈: 好吖去邊系乜嘢吖
你喜歡我不喜歡為何你一見我就發呆
喜歡我不喜歡為什么你都不說出來
農夫: 艾可能不知道我的名字
其實我在香港很紅又在上電視
很多冠軍歌是因你擱置這一支特別獻給你
我和你語言不通我普通話與眾不同
我想告訴你我的小小威風怎么說你才懂我真是沒用

農夫：我普通話太普通
怪小時候不用功
我喜歡你卻不能溝通
情話在我心中卻卡在喉嚨
我普通話太普通
怪小時候不用功
我說廣東話你聽不懂你
季欣霈: 唔好意思吖我唔識聽又唔識講噶

话太普通 - 农夫 <<<< Click this to listen

~回乡~

2010-04-26T09:18:00.000+08:00

24.04.2010就是我们这一团(第二届社区服务团)回乡日啦...
早上8点就在UTAR, PC Block集合，然后就上车浩浩荡荡的往仕林河出发..^^
又回到我们下乡的地方，真的很怀念哦...
一踏进校门，就有许多弟弟妹妹们和我们打招呼..
他们都很欢迎我们回来..
之后，我们先和已经小学毕业的谊弟谊妹们吃个早餐...
我的谊弟(陈健宏)看到我回来，高兴得不得了..
他还送我一个小礼物呢~ ^^

da~da! 这就是他送给我的小礼物啦..很可爱吧?^^

吃完早餐后，我们便各自回自己的谊家拜访。由于我谊弟的妈妈在上课，所以就没的去啦..
只好去我谊妹(邹慧盈)。忘了告诉你们，那天也是我谊妹的生日呢..我这个糊涂虫忘了这个大日子，搞得当场立刻去买个小蛋糕帮她庆祝。之后，我也在临回家前补礼物给她。谊妹的妈妈还很客气的打电话给我，和我道谢的..呵呵。。开心哦^^

除此之外，廷邦的谊妹(洁行)也送我一个小礼物哦..

这就是洁行送我的小礼物啦~^^
超美超炫的哦...

大概傍晚五点半左右，我谊弟的妈妈终于赶得及回来见我了^^
原来我谊弟谊妹的妈妈们都很漂亮的哦..
生了孩子，身材依然那么的苗条..羡慕死我了..
还有一个更好笑的东西，我谊弟的妈妈竟然在我回PJ的路程中，寄了一封好笑的短讯给我。
内容如下:
"干女，ON THE WAY TO KL了是吗？叫司机别驾那太快。踩尽油门就好了...哈哈哈...
祝一路顺风...嘘！！再告诉你一个小秘密: 原来我有个这么漂亮的女儿呢...又再次发达咯..
哈哈哈...“

哈哈..搞笑吧？原来我也有那么一个爱开玩笑又美的谊妈哦..哈哈..而且她不给我叫她auntie的哦..她要我叫她"妈咪"..哈哈..我无端端又多了一个妈妈..不过也不错啦^^

希望下次回乡可以和我的谊弟谊妹们多相处，多了解的..这次回乡还有点匆促了..
最重要的还是和谊家们有个接一步的了解，和他们更亲密的^^

~SaKaI BaBy? SaKaI PrinCess? ~

2010-04-22T08:37:00.000+08:00

Thanks God to give me such a good Daddy and Mummy..
Although is kinda late to post this up but now only I have that free time to give a name for my new "hubby"..
Wondering who is my new hubby??
Haha..."He" is a car car..But at the same time I have to say bye bye to my lovely SaKaI KinG Hubby...
Kinda miss "him" now..T.T

I get my new hubby last month (6 March 2010).
But actually my dad bought "him" 1 week earlier that the date I mentioned..
Is not I want a hew hubby..is my dad said a car that with power stereng is easier for a girl to drive at KL..
So ends up I have to "divorce" with my old hubby..T.T
I don't want to do so..but...haih...I am being forced to do so..
You guys sure wonder where is my old hubby now right?
I can tell that "he" is at Langkap, Perak now..
The new car owner is a Chinese guy..And the lucky thing is the new car owner doesn't tear off my sticker that I stick on my old hubby...(actually this chinese guy is my dad's friend and he told my dad that he like my car's sticker)*wink*
Wakaka...Damn happy..but damn sad also la..this is because I really like that sticker so much..It represent me..
Everytime I go out with my old hubby, everyone sure look at my old hubby..but now..T.T
I MISS YOU, My SaKaI KinG...

So now I get a new hubby, what name should I named "him"?? hmmmm..*thinking*
SaKaI BaBy??SaKaI PrinCess??
The name will also design as a sticker for my new hubby..
Some of my friends suggest to named "him" as SaKaI PiKaChu..
LoL...it sound a bit weird...Anyway, it still a good idea..since my nickname is Pikachu..haha
So guys, any ideas for my new hubby's name??
If got, please tell me or post it in my facebook account...I will consider it^^
Thanks ya...=D

~麻烦的人~

2010-04-09T10:34:00.000+08:00

总觉得我是个麻烦的人..
一直一直给别人添麻烦..
家人，朋友，室友，伴侣甚至是卖东西的小贩..

因为我，
我爸爸和妈妈吵架..
妈妈不理睬爸爸..
记得有上个月，我关电话..
因为发生了某件事，所以我不想接任人电话和短信..
就因为这样，我爸爸要找我，却打不进我的电话，感到很着急..
他打了很多电话给我的表哥，表姐们，舅舅，舅母..
最后还想亲自跑到kl来找我..
但还好舅母和舅舅阻止了他..舅舅就代替了爸爸来找我..
舅母与舅舅和我聊了一整晚...
我表哥也打了一通电话和我聊..
表姐们在Facebook留了message给我...
我好像变成了大人物一样..
就因为这样我觉得我是个麻烦的人..时常让人着急..
一出世就已经给别人麻烦了..到如今长大了还是一样..

因为我那爱“想太多” 的思想,
我的朋友及伴侣时常为我操心..
你们可以看到我每次所写的部落格，大部分都是伤心忧郁的..
别人看了都会问,"你还好吗？？" "没事吧？？”
不是我爱写这样的类型的部落格，是因为我就是这样，想太多，顾虑太多，害怕的更多..
我不懂要怎样改变我自己，一时看到我嘻嘻哈哈，一时看到我静静不出声..
每次都没原因的emo..
连我自己都在想自己到底要什么??

最近上的一堂psychology课，发现到我有个严重的状态..
那就是我以前爱做的东西，现在都不感兴趣了..
那是其中一种mood disorder的症状...
我到底怎么了？？
搞得我那开心"Pikachu World"的部落格都在哭泣..
我可以不要那么烦人吗？？

~雨~

2010-03-28T17:39:00.000+08:00

今天驾车去了Shah Alam的Taman Pertanian Malaysia.
参与的有国祥和国俊 (他们不是兄弟哦..一点血缘关系也没有的)
一路上我们都蛮闷得，大家都累了吧...
忙功课，忙活动，忙生活....
都在忙...生活就是那么累人...

虽然是蛮累的，但今天可说是我可以笑到没有力那种..
这两个冬瓜一直做那些小动作（尤其是国祥），
让我笑到连起脚踏车的力都没有..
真的托他们的福..
还以为这次的考察我会闷到发霉...
哪里懂原来是那么的有趣...^^

三辆脚踏车，三个人..
我们就这样骑啊骑...
骑的路都是上坡的..累到一直喊休息..
国俊今天一直都在糊糊涂涂中..
一直做些让人紧张的事情..
但原来只是白紧张一场的..
就像当我们把脚踏车还给负责人时，必须显示出那个收条..(如果没收条，我们就拿不回身份证)
但他既然和我们说，他弄不见了..
害我和国祥紧张的帮他在书包里找..
结果他从他的口袋里拿出那张收条..
气到国祥想扁他..

今天真的不是那么的幸运..
因为今天考察到一半就下起大雨..
害我们像落汤鸡那样..湿湿的..
但我喜欢..
喜欢淋雨..喜欢在雨中走走..
但不是和他们啦..喜欢一个人这样做..
不懂为什么，雨，可以令我觉得很舒服的..很自在..
但另一方面，雨，也可以令我变得很忧郁...
这个感觉很矛盾的..

当然，我希望雨带给我的都是自在的感觉..
我的人生就要像雨后的彩虹..
先苦后甜..
得到和我付出一样分量的成果..

~快乐与伤心的交叉点~

2010-03-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

今天(20.3.2010)突然心血来潮，和他还有她的表哥表姐去了Putrajaya看Hot Air Balloon Fiesta.
原以为Putrajaya是不会有那么多人去看这种东东的..哪里懂去到那里大塞车...ish!!
在车上坐了整1个小时才找到地方泊车..他的表哥的脸顿时拉长了许多的...
到达目的地已经是傍晚5点半了..离开节目开始还有半个小时..*phew*幸好赶得及^^

一下车，我们就像被关了很久的小狗一样，到处跑，到处玩...
我们还看到许多不同国家的游客到这里来观赏热气球..人是多到可以把Putrajaya挤爆的..
(因为Putrajaya也不是很大的..haha^^) 不久，我就看到一颗颗五颜六色的气球被吹涨了起来..
接着就随着风飘在空中...哇...那时的天空顿时被那几十颗的热气球染上了颜色..超美的!!! ^^
赞!!

那么美得景色，当然少不了拍照时刻啦...^^ 游玩时刻，我自己还是离不开工作..我在那个Fiesta无意中看到了与我的event有关的单位..我立刻跑向前与那位负责人拿了联络号码和e-mail...哇!!! 超开心的^^希望我与她可以合作快乐啦...

大约晚上8点半，我们也踏着回家的路程..不过，开心的时刻总是短暂的..

在回家路程，我收到了一封令我很惊讶的短讯...当我读那封短讯时，我还在半信半疑中..但当我打给我的好朋友询问时，我才知道这一切都是真的..原本快乐的心情，就被这封短讯夺走了...我还不时打电话给其他朋友，告诉他们这消息，希望他们帮忙照顾伟杰...

一个月内痛失双亲，这是一件我最忍受不了的事情..更何况时其他人..比起其他人，伟杰已经算是为很勇敢的人了..换成是我，我更定疯了..说不定脑子里已经有几百个方式让自己的寿命变短..那天一整晚，我也为了不想影响他和他的表哥表姐的心情，自己只容忍自己流几滴眼泪(爱哭包就是这样的啦，什么事都哭一场的..)。伟杰的痛，我可以了解..因为我曾经失去过我最敬爱的人..但伟杰的痛绝对是我的双倍，甚至是几百倍的...

Lion King..加油!! 我们永远都会在你身旁的..虽然现在我不能做些什么，也帮不上什么，但至少我可以替你加油打气..做你的聆听者..不要气馁..你一定要站起来,让你的父母看到你那么的积极，给他们一个安慰..加油!!

~羡慕~

2010-03-04T06:28:00.000+08:00

最近我还蛮三八的..
自己已经是emo到顶点了..
我还时间去羡慕别人的部落格..
总觉得这段时间，每个人都需要爱...

朋友间，我可以说70%，朋友们的部落格都在写着一些安慰的话...
有伴侣的，都会写些安慰的话，鼓励的话给他们的另一半...
没伴侣的，都会写些安慰自己的话，鼓励自己努力拼命..
令我觉得羡慕的还是那些写部落格给自己另一半的朋友..
他们用的词可以说甜到可以得糖尿病..
至于为何我会羡慕，不是因为我的另一半没这样做, 而是因为我太想念他吧..

我和他总是有忙不完的工作..
见面的时间也只是那区区的几个小时..
聊电话的时间也只是那区区的几分钟..
是几分钟哦..不是一小时或两小时..
总羡慕我的室友和她的男友谈电话的时候..
好像有谈不完的话题..
当自己和他聊的时候就好像赶火车那样..
话题是有啦,但不多咯..
可以谈比较久的话题来来去去都是那几个..
大致上都是关于一些学校活动的话题..

前几天，我有一个男性朋友很直接的问我两个问题..
“他值得你那么做吗?”
“他会那样对回你吗?”
当他问我这两个问题时，我当场傻眼了一下..
但最后我还是回答了..
“他值得我那样做"
“我相信他会那样”
虽然自己恋爱经验不多，但多多少少还是懂爱情是两方面的..
不是一个人可以做到..
虽然自己还是会羡慕其他情侣间的一些恋爱小动作..
但到最后我还是会告诉自己

“只要他在身边，什么也不重要了”

最近的他病了..真希望自己就住在他家隔壁..

可以无时无刻的照顾他..

但这一切也只是脑袋里的三八思想..

前几天，他还蛮好笑的..

临睡前，寄了几封信息来..

内容大约如此..

"go slip go slip...v meet in the dream ya..i wait you at there"

"ok ok...don forget the gate 1116..i wait you there..go slip faster.."

哈哈..和他开始以来，我还真第一次收到类似的信息..

虽然那时的我快要崩溃了,但收到他的来信，嘴唇也不自禁的向上弯..

和他二人世界的时间不多，所以我会更加珍惜每一分每一秒与他在一起的时间..

*朋友们，不要再post那些甜到像蜜糖的部落格啦...我会得糖尿病eh*

~RanDom~

2010-03-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

It is something suppose to be suprised here..
This few days, I keep on wake up late.I even set 2 alarm clocks but yet I still wake up late..
Although I manage to reach campus on time but I want to wake up earlier to study for my mid-term..
And I just cant do it...
Well..Its fine..As long as I am not late for class then is enough..

This week onward, I will be damn damn damn busy de..
All the meetings, assignments, presentations, reports and many more..
I feel like I'm going to "heaven" soon..
Just like what the Chinese said " Got time for die but no time for sick"

Nothing much I can expect from myself or others..
I just want my events and all the studies stuff can go on smoothly..
Not to say be the special ones but just make it the style that I want it to be..

At here, I want to special thanks to someone..
That is my daddy..My lovely daddy..
Thanks for his fully support..
He even bought me a new laptop as for my future use..
Not to show off but just wanna share with you all..
Thanks, dad..
I will do my best and get the best result as the return for what you have done for me..

Recently I had join a audition for a host..
The audition will be held on this coming Friday (5.3.2010)
Girls and Guys, please wish me good luck ya..
Be a host is my dream since that day I choose broadcasting as my degree course..
So really hope that I will be selected..
Thanks a lot ya..^^

~改变自己~

2010-02-25T06:28:00.000+08:00

♫我可以改变世界

改变自己改变龟毛改变小气

要一直努力努力永不放弃

才可以改变世界 come on改变自己♫

改变世界，改变自己

情绪改变生活

生活改变笑容

笑容改变舵盘

舵盘改变方向

方向改变目的地

目的地改变人群

人群改变感情

感情改变方式

方式改变....

最想改变的还是自己

最近的我变得无理取闹

不懂是为了什么

功课吗？压力吗？生活吗？

不知道

或许时间可以改变一切

希望你可以给我一点时间

我可以改变自己的

请给我少许的支持

好吗

~Miss You All~

2010-02-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today is kinda emo..
Early morning already get frustrated about something..
Really wanna scold people that time, but at the end I shut my mouth..

Almost 1 year I moved my studies to PJ..
but I not really found anyone that is true at here..
I miss my kampar friends.. They are so true to me..
No mask on their face..
My life is kinda uncomfortable here..

Everyday when the sky turn black, my emo feel will come to my mind..
Then will start to think a lots..and listen to some soft songs..
My memories at kampar..My friends at kampar..
My hometown..My family...My old friends..
All the memories..All the old pictures and photos..
I will view all those photos again and again..
Every time I view all the photos, my tears will automatically drop down..
The tears just out of my control..

Every single place, every single day..I also miss all the crazy things that we had done..
Every time I go back kampar or teluk intan (my hometown), I sure will go to the place that me and my friends always go..recall back all the "events", the songs, the mv, the dance..
Things that I cant find at PJ..
I really do miss you all..
I miss those days that I no need to pretend in front of others..
This kind of life is really suffering..
When I can back to that kind of life again?
I really really miss all that..T.T

~Gathering~ 老朋友，老样子(^__^)

2010-02-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday (12.02.2010) was my primary school + secondary school's CNY gathering..
woo~hoo~(^@^)
I am damn happy for it..all the old friends, all the old matter make me recall back all the sweet memories when all of us are together..
Yesterday our gathering was held at Restaurant Sechuan, 8pm and have 31 friends attend this gathering..
We eat, we joke, and we laugh...
Although we are quite a long time no see each other, we yet still close to each other..
Unlimited topics among us..
No stress, no shame and no nervous..
Only miss, love and hugs..
Then continue with photo session...O(∩_∩)O~
Haha..I will never miss this session out...XD

Attached are some my gathering's photos...^^

~Valentine's Day~

2010-02-12T13:08:00.000+08:00

Haha..as I promise you guys that I will post what I have done for my special one..
Here you go...^^

First is the card design..^@^

This is the front page of the card..

This is the inner design of the card..

This is the close up of the love shape fishy in the middle..^^

Next will be the cake box's design..^@^

This is the plan view of the cake's box..

This is the front view of the cake's box..

This is the side view of the cake's box..

Overall view of the cake's box..nice??? ^^

Finally come to the worst thing..is the cake that I bake...T.T sob sob...

This is the cake~ (T.T) I know it look not so nice...sorry~the middle one actually are the cherries and almonds..is a chocolate almond cake..

Okay..That's all...wuwu (T.T) I know it is not really that nice as what I describe..but I made them with fully sincerity..Boys and Girls just give whatever comment you want..I am ready to accept..~~o(>_<)o ~~

~Chinese New Year 2010~ WooHOO!!

2010-02-11T07:44:00.000+08:00

10..

11..

12..

13..

14!!!

is 14th February !! Yeah.. is not about Valentine's Day but is Chinese New Year... WOOHOO~!

I am so excited to go back hometown to meet my lovely family and all my friends..

12th February 2010 my friends and I will have a grand gathering at one of the famous restautant at my hometown..

it is going to be very very grand...plus this gathering is also as a last dinner with those friends who are going to fly to oversea soon..wuwu T.T sad la...There are too many sweet memories with them..some more most of them are my primary school till now~ Imagine that..from primary school till now, there are too many events that we go through together..Especially Teacher's Day..Only Teacher's Day, we can make a lot of things just to give it to our lovely teacher, Mrs Tan. Let's show you guys some pictures...

The first picture is our first Teacher's Day cake for our lovely teacher, Mrs Tan. Second year will be the second pictures. The third pictures is together with the first picture. And it is done by me..haha..is 1 manilla card size..kinda big ya..hehe..

Now, back to topic..As we know this year Valentine's Day is fall on the same day as Chinese New Year. Yeah, I do prepared something for him..but cant show to you guys right now because he still don't know what is it..haha..but I can tell that the present is all done by my hands..only material is bought from outside..all handmade..hehe..just for the someone special ^@^ May upload the pictures of the present tomorrow..haha..

Although today only 11th February, I can feel the Chinese New Year is coming around..because all my coursemates are using Chinese New Year songs (For example : 大日子,惜福) as their handphone's ringtone..is kinda sweat..=.=|||

Haha..anyway, it is a good sign..because last time no one will really willing use Chinese New Year's songs as their handphone's ringtone especially the teenagers..but now it seems have some changes..good one~ XD

At last, wish you guys have a nice Chinese New Year and romantic Valentine's Day^^ WooHoo~!

~ Touching And Funny~

2010-02-07T09:23:00.000+08:00

Just wanna share something great with you all..
They are 2 videos here..
One is from my primary school..
Other 1 is from my CSS...
wow..
1 is touching, another 1 is funny..hahaha

This will be my primary school video..
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?comments&v=1325107680671

This is my CSS video..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPZ_cuIwEpU

Enjoy it~^^♥

~Newie~

2010-02-06T18:22:00.000+08:00

Hehe..
Dont doubt..you are reading Miss Sakai King @ Pikachu's blog..
I just change the colours and the fonts..
Nothing much but just wanna give my blog have a change..
New year what..must have a new look, new hope and new colous..
haha..

Anyway, just crapping here..
Hope you guys continue read my blog and leave a comment if you feel free to do so..
^^
Au revoir..

~Sorry~

2010-01-26T19:58:00.000+08:00

Here I want to apologize to my family, my friends and my dear..
Sorry to you all..
Always give a lot of problems, troubles to you all..
First of all, wanna say sorry to my mom..
Sorry mom, I really need to slap myself for not believing what you told me last time..
until I get betrayed by some people...
Really sorry, mom...
And thanks for protecting me..I know you love me very much..
Just...I didn't realise last time..sorry..

Next, I want to say sorry to my dad..
Sorry, dad..
I know I really gave a lot of problems to you..
always let you worry about me..
And I also waste a lot of money on uneccesary things..
Really sorry dad..I promise I will study very hard and get a good result..
I Love You, Dad..

Then, I want to say sorry to all my friends..
My friends, sorry..
Sorry for every mistakes that I had done to you all..
I know I had done many many mistake until uncountable..
I can't even do something for you all..
I am in confused since I came to PJ..
I don't know who I should trust..
Everyone is wearing a mask here..
It make me change my own personality..
Become the third person who is a stranger to you all..
Sorry..Now I realise you all are so important to me..
I cant live without you all..
Sorry for make you all in trouble..

Finally, I want to say sorry to my dear..
Sorry, dear..
Recently I know I am quite emo..
always get angry easily..
My attitude is very bad...I am hot tempered..
You always ask me to change it..but I always scold you back..
Can't even understand your inner feeling..
You always be patient to me..
But I always take out my bad temper..
Sorry, dear..
I hope you can forgive me..
I promise I will change...but do you mind to give me some times to change it?
And do you mind continue to give me support and advise to me?
I need you by my side, dear..
I know I can't continue like this anymore..
I am so scare one day, you can't stand it anymore and choose to leave me alone..
Sorry dear..Please forgive me...

Everyone, so sorry...
Please continue to give me advises and I promise I will change..

我受够了..

2010-01-18T01:41:00.001+08:00

我真的受够了..

为何每次都是我在让你们??

为何每次你们都是那么的不责任？

为何你们说话不算话？

我真的很累..

我很想逃出这个累人的生活..

可是我就是不能..

为什么我就是不能像别人一样可以很容易的争取自己要的东西？

一次又一次的让你们所说的话伤害..

请问你们在说任何话之前，可以想想别人的感受吗？

你们可以站在别人的立场想想吗？

我的心真的很乱..

不懂怎样面对你们..

要讨厌你们又不是..

要和你们嬉皮笑脸又不是..

到底你们想要我怎样做？？

~缺点~

2010-01-13T12:29:00.000+08:00

每个人都有缺点..

你有我有他也有..

但有些缺点也是优点..

只是看你怎么去看待..

有些人很顽皮..

但如果你在另一个角度看..

他们只是想要你一点点的注意..

有些人很高调..

但从另一个角度想..

他们只是想要和你分享他们的喜悦..

并不是英文里所谓的"show off"..

又或者是他们只是说出事实..

说话方式不太会婉转而已..

有些人外表不怎么好看..

可能又矮又肥的..

但你是否有想过，

他们也不想的..

也曾努力去改造他们的外表..

只是需要一些时间等待成果?

有谁会要自己长得这样啊？？

有些人紧张过度，

做错决定给你骂了一顿..

但你是否有想过,

他们也只是因为紧张、在乎才会做错?

有谁会去从另一个角度看别人的缺点？

有谁会了解拥有这些缺点的人？

答案还是个未知数..

多体谅，多了解你身边的人..

时时刻刻用另一个想法对待别人..

另一个角度看待这个世界..

你就会发现到这世界其实是有两面的..

~新年~

2010-01-12T14:13:00.000+08:00

不知不觉,新年快到了..

看见街上那红彤彤的灯,

红红的装饰品..

新年的那个心情又回来了..

但不再那么的期待了..

今年的新年不像往前一样,

因为今年的新年少了一个人的笑声..

少称呼一个人..

饭桌上少了一个碗碟，一双筷子..

更少了阿嫲煮的菜肴..

今年新年就是少了阿嫲和我们一起度过..

我并不是在乎拿少一个红包..

而是在乎我不能再和阿嫲一起看新年贺剧..

不能再一起听新年歌...

不能在一起吃团圆饭..

还记得以前我很喜欢和阿嫲看1995年的贺岁剧..

虽然已经过时了，但内容还是百看不厌..

我也难以形容那个贺岁剧的内容给你们知道..

但现在再也看不到了...

那个片子已随着阿嫲一起消失了,..

阿嫲，你在那边好吗？

那边是否也有如此红彤彤新年的装饰品？

虽然今年不能和你在一起过新年，

但我还是想对你说声

“阿嫲，新年快乐~"

~心跳~

2010-01-10T21:27:00.000+08:00

当一个人没心跳时，

那是什么时候？

在人间的时间到了吗？

今天我的心情很差..

总觉得我的心跳很不正常..

在我还未回PJ之前，

我回阿嫲家一下...

踏进那家门口，

我的心，我的脑袋一直叫我不要进..

但我还是进了..

妈妈叫我上香给阿嫲..

点了三支香，

向阿嫲的神主牌望了一眼..

上面写着我阿嫲的名...

一上完香，我立刻跑了出去..

我忍受不了那种痛，

我的心在痛..

前一个星期我还看着阿嫲好好的吃着东西..

开开心心的和我们聊天..

现在我却对着冷冰冰的神主牌..

和她说话，是没任何反应的..

之前是看着她开心的吃东西，

现在看到是元宝蜡烛插在她的神主牌前..

那种痛仿佛是在我的心插了几刀..

心跳也快要没了..

我的泪滴在我的心..

有谁会懂得这种心情？

连我自己也无法形容..

~我的阿嫲~

2010-01-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

我的阿嫲，也就是我的外婆，我妈妈的妈妈..

是个很慈祥的老人家..

她从不骂任何人..

更不曾打过任何她的孙子..

就算我们有多捣蛋，有多顽皮..

她只会好声好气的训我们..

好好的劝我们..

我的阿嫲..

从小就是我的英雄..

每当妈妈要鞭我的时候，她都会跳出来保护我..

帮我挡那所有的处罚..

从不让我受任何的痛..

就算妈妈的藤鞭不小心打在她的身上，她都不曾怪妈妈..

就算她痛，她也心甘情愿..

我的阿嫲..

也是我的零食供应者..

还记得小时候我常常要求阿嫲买冰淇淋给我吃，

一听见买雪糕伯伯的铃声..."叮叮叮当~"

我就会吵着阿嫲， “阿嫲！阿嫲！黑人(Oh Lang)来了！黑人(Oh Lang)来了！” （福建话)

她二话不说就从小钱包里掏出了50仙给我..

就算她小钱包里剩下的几令吉，她都会买给我..

在她心里，孩子孙子永远都是排第一的..

还记得每次买冰淇淋时，她都会问我一句话, "以后长大了会买冰淇淋给阿嫲吃吗？"

“当然会啊~” 我就这样答应了她..

但在我还没实现这个承诺前，我的阿嫲已经离开了我..

2010年1月3日, 凌晨4.40am..

我的表哥把我房间的门敲得都快垮了，

一开门，我表哥就说了一些我不爱听的话..

"Grandma passed away, quickly go change your clothes.."

我那时还模模糊糊的回了一个字, "哦!"

当时的我一滴眼泪也没流..

应该还在睡梦中吧..

直到我到了阿嫲家...

看见阿姨们眼眶红红的..

眼泪不停地流，嘴里不停地喊着阿嫲..

我的眼泪才在那时候清醒，随着脸颊流到我的唇边..

不懂我是接受不了事实还是我早已有了心理准备，

我不像在上次外公去世那时哭得那么严重..

这次我反而变得很冷静，有种哭不出，心胸闷闷的感觉..

心里，脑袋里还是感觉到阿嫲就在我的身边..

阿嫲还没离开我...

阿嫲在临走前，我还记得她说过她很想念我..

来了PJ读书那么久，我都很少回hometown..

每次都是一两个月回一次..

所以有时我的阿嫲以为我去做工了..

每次回去阿嫲家，阿嫲就会又抱又吻我的..

你们可能会觉得很不自在如果你们的婆婆这样对你们..

但我反而觉得很温馨，很幸福，很满足..

可是现在我不会有这样的机会了..

没有人会这样又抱又吻，说想念我了..

因为阿嫲已不在了..阿嫲已和阿公相聚了..

我真的后悔,

我还来不及实现我对她的承诺，

我还来不及对她说，我会很想念她..

我还来不及给她最后的拥抱..

阿嫲, 我真的很想念你..

阿嫲，我还要买很多很多的冰淇淋给你吃..

阿嫲，我还想让你抱抱，让你吻...

阿嫲，我还想听见你对我说你很想念我..

阿嫲，我真的好爱你~

安心吧，我的阿嫲..

这个就是我所说的黑人(Oh Lang)..*他的车有蓝色雨伞和一个红色椅子,他穿着线条上衣的.....已经几十年了...从我未出世到现在，这个雪糕伯伯就卖雪糕到现在...他是我的童年的一部分...

Am I Dreaming?? ~

2010-01-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

Today 9.45am, my mom start calling me wake up..

Arghh~

I just sleep at 6am...feel so sleepy at that time when my mom call me...

O~k...doesn't matter..

I wake up and answer her call..

Once I press the green button on my handphone, my mom start to scold me..

"Why so late only answer my call??"

"You still sleeping? What is the time already? "

and blah blah blah~

until my eardrum gonna burst....

phew~Finally this call end after 5 minutes...

Then I wake up and start to clean myself...

pack up everything in blur condition...

After that, my dad call me around 10.50am..

He ask what time will I depart from PJ to go back to hometown..

and then...

He ask me a very surprise question..

"How much is the video camera?? RM14oo??"

Oh my god...

Am I dreaming when he ask me this question...

Never Mind...

Another thing is I bought a woofer today..

woo...

This is also out of expectation..

WOW!! ^^

Am I Dreaming??

Please slap me if you willing to do so...haha

Couple Shirt For Whole Family~^^

2009-12-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Wahaha..Recently I'm getting insane..

My mind is full of funny ideas..

This is the first one...

I think all of you wont be do so since this idea is so special..

Wahaha...XD

The idea is I buy my whole family a pair of couple shirts~

AND MY WHOLE FAMILY GONNA WEAR IT AT DURING CHRISTMAS~Wooooo!

My parents, my eldest brother and his girlfriend and finally me and my lovely sakai will have the T-shirt^^

Wanna see the shirt??

Here you go~

This is my parents' couple shirt?? Lovely right?? wahaha^^ I choose for them~

My dad promise me say that he will wear it during Christmas..My dad is so lovable~

This is my eldest brother and his girlfriend's couple t-shirt...

Nice right?? I choose for them~ AGAIN! wahaha XD

Imagine that the whole family is wearing the couple T-shirt and go for christmas celebration....

WOW!! that is very very romantic and special~

wahaha...

Are you guys wonder where is mine couple T-shirt??

Haha..Just wanna keep it as secret...^^

But maybe later will upload it...

see you guys respond and comment lo...

Nothing That I Can Done Perfectly~

2009-12-11T08:34:00.000+08:00

Now only I realize that nothing that I can done perfectly..

even though a small thing, I also couldn't do it well..

Feel so sorry to everyone..

Feel so guilty..

I know some of you won't mind about it..

But I am VERY CARE...

I don't know what can I do to improve myself..

Feel so useless of myself..

Feel so stupid...

always tell others not to break promise..

but I always do so..

Really speechless to myself..

feel so disappointed to myself..

Stupid Pikachu..

Moron Zynx..

You are SO USELESS, CHIN ZIH YIN~

You should slap yourself for hundred or even thousands times..

~GuiLty~

2009-12-08T23:59:00.001+08:00

This few days feel so guilty..

Hurt many people without realizing...

By the way, wanna say sorry to everyone that I can't be the perfect one..

especially to the someone..

sorry..

always give you all troubles and make you all always worry about me..

my clumsy,

my stubborn,

my tomboy appearance,

and many things..

Just wanna apologizes..

I will try to change my weaknesses..

Do my best..

sorry~

SpEcIaL

2009-12-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

Triple One Six...

1116...

What so special about this number?

Maybe it just a number for you all..

but for me, this number is my heart's key..

This key open my heart..

My heart being locked for so long time..

But at this day I open my heart to someone..

Someone who also called sakai...

Someone who sit beside me and met my first accident in PJ..

Someone who join the same activity and events with me..

Someone who always ask me to wear like the girls that he saw in the shopping mall..

Someone who always tease me fat or even call me fat girl.. (hate him when he call me so)

Someone who always ask me to walk straight like a model..

Someone who is very caring and also very naughty..

I start over my life at 1116..

It is a special day in my life..because of this someone..

always take care of me..

always comfort me when I am sad..

always jokes with me..

I am touched with what he have done..

I appreciate what he have done for me...

Thanks Sakai..

Thanks...

I know I am not the perfect one yet...

But I promise I will try my best to change..

I love you, my dear..

~BaD LuCK~

2009-11-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

Last 2 days(17.11.2009) was a bad day for me..

Or maybe I should say that I am lucky..

Because that day, thieves break into my house

They stole 2 laptop and RM400++

I don't know why my laptop didn't get steal...

This is mainly because my laptop are just near the door that the thieves use to came into my house..

But the thieves steal the laptop of my house mates who are only sit opposite of me..

My laptop are really that near to the door that the thieves use to came into my house..

Don'w know wanna say the thieves are stupid or what...

Another lucky thing is that time I was not at home..

Because normally that time (9am-1pm), I will just stay at home and waiting for the time to go to class..

But that day, I was going to Slim River to attend a ceremony of my adopted sister..

So that time when the thieves break in to my house, I was attending the ceremony..

Sigh...

There is a problem for this incident..

My parents want me to move out from that house..

They say the house is insecure..dangerous..

I try to persuade them that I don't want move and wanna stay together with my house mates..

But my parents don't allowed and insist want me to move after I found another room to stay..

Sigh..

My mom keep on annoying me about this issue..

I really don't want move out and separate with my lovely house mates..

What can I do??

CrAzy~

2009-11-07T05:20:00.000+08:00

Today don't know why I was hyper super tired..

After having my lunch, my eyes lids start to getting heavier..

after struggle for half an hour..

I choose to go to have a nap..

At the same moment, I ask my room mate to wake me up after half an hour..

But who knows, my room mate didn't wake me up and I slept until 6pm!!

I sleep at 3pm but wake up at 6pm!!

Oh my god...

I was like....O~K, WHATEVER~

It is my 1st time to sleep 3 hours just for my noon nap..

But it make me cant sleep at night...

So what am I going to do??

I start nudge everyone who are still online at msn..

Then my friends ask me why don't go to sleep..

And I told them my reason..

At the end, I ask one of them to go lepak with me^^ haha..

The one who lepak with me is Qiao Wen..

She just come back from a movie but she still volunteer to accompany me this crazy girl..^^

Haha..Thanks to her^^

Then we plan to go kacao a friend who work at a bistro which is inside Jaya One...

But when we reached there, we saw that he was kinda busy..

So, we decide to cancel our plan..

And then we went to 7-11 convenient shop to buy some drinks and start chit-chat..

Haha..don't know why, we start dancing...

I play the songs with my handphone, then me and her start dancing in somewhere inside Jaya 1..

We are like those drunker who dance without feel any shame..

But we enjoy it^^

Suddenly a mat salleh come to us and shake hands with us..

"Nice to meet you" he said

And I replied him with french : " Enchanter"

He was shocked when I speak French..

Haha..XD

We chit-chat plus dancing until 2.30am..

Then I found that Qiao Wen looks very tired, and I sent her back home..

Thanks to her to accompany me for whole night^^

And also sorry for suddenly pull her out with me..

Watch Alone~

2009-11-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

Do you ever do something alone always? I mean like shopping alone, watch movie alone, have your meal alone or home alone??

I am sure that not everyone do that often..

But I did~

Last weekend I go to watch movie alone..

I reached at cinema around 9.10pm..

Then go to buy ticket..

The worker at counter ask me how many ticket(s) I want..

" 1 please" I answered.

The worker feel kinda shock when I say so..

Plus the movie that I choose to watch is PG-13..

So she kinda not believe I am 19 and going to watch this movie alone..

Whatever~

Anyway, I have to wait until 11.50pm because the move start at that time..

While waiting for the time, I lepak at a Taiwan Restaurant..

I ordered a drink and sat at there until 11.15pm..

The waiter in the restaurant thought I am waiting someone else to come..

But actually there is only me..

I paid the bill and left..

continue waiting until 11.45pm, then go in to the cinema and watch movie..

After I finish, its already 2am..

WOW~~

Kinda early ya..

On the way going back home, I feel different feeling..

Don know why I feel relief..

Haha..Maybe I become abnormal~

Anyway, watch movie alone for the 1st time is a new feeling to me..

下乡的话^^爱·童乐愿同心

2009-10-27T11:02:00.000+08:00

下乡过了那么久，我才写这个部落格，很明显是迟了很多..哈哈^^但有些话总忘不了。我有很多很多故事想要与你们分享，很多很多话对我的团员说..

我下乡的日子就在10月15日到10月18日。虽然期间我因为发高烧而回家了，但这不代表我退营哦..只是暂时离开..好啦，我要从哪里开始呢？Hmm..想到谁就写谁吧^^v

俊辉 : 你很有那种教育股股长的样子咧..虽然每个人都叫你"小孩", 但你的思想一点都不小孩哦..反而有很成熟的想法。教育股给你掌控，简直是绝配啊^^

晓彤 : 我很喜欢看你笑咯^^你笑起来很甜美，很可爱的^^你的笑容让我觉得很欣慰，因为你的笑容有那种小孩子的感觉。

彦婷 : 当时你说要退团时，真的吓到我咧..不过还好你选择留下来，真的是可喜可贺^^我们都是一团的，有什么事可以和我们分享分担哦^^

庄亮 : 你很有自己的想法。你个人也很坦率，有什么就说什么，这点我还蛮欣赏你的(因为我自己没办法做到啊)。希望你保持下去哦^^

雁慈 : 我超爱你的海报^^很有创意咯..至少美过上一届的^^哈哈..给他们看到我写什么就糟糕了

佩雯 : 你是我的室友，所以你在团里的一切我最清楚..你可以为了那个海报累到不像人样，也不情愿去睡觉。我很佩服你的精神。虽然期间发生了很多不愉快的事，但要加油哦^^

巧雯 : 不知何时，我们的感情越来越好哦^^从没话可说变得无话不说,是也说，不是也说 ; 是也笑，不是也笑..总之感情很好啦^^

侑洋 : 我们的友谊也是在团里慢慢变得很好哦^^也不知何时开始的事啦...哈哈^^在筹备营的时候，我们时常和巧雯他们去吃晚餐..我们的距离大概在那时候拉近了吧^^希望可以保持下去哦^^

智辉：初初认识你时，还以为你是那种比较内向的大哥哥。哪里懂，认识久了，才发现原来你不简单哦..你那种疯疯癫癫的样子果然让我大跌眼镜..(哎呀，我忘了我没戴眼睛的^^哈哈)

欣燕 : 喜欢看你笑笑的时候，可爱的像小孩般的^^下次看到我要笑多一点哦^^保持联络哦..

玉青 : 记得之前我一直写错你的姓,不好意思哦..希望你大人有大量，不要怪小人哦..虽然和你没什么接触，但我们也不因为这样而疏远。希望下次我们可以聊更多哦^^

凯明 : 一山还有一山高，尝试放大你的心，缩小你自己。

昇隆 : 你啊？erm..其实我很蛮喜欢看你跳舞的^^你跳舞的时候简直就是小孩子一样，不管别人怎么想你，就是要把自己在心里最深处的一面展现出来^^很好哦^^很期待再次看你跳舞，尤其是那首《穷开心》^^

诗韵 : 你是在联谊里最卖力的那个。你就像大姐姐一样，每次都要照顾那三个小弟弟和一个小妹妹。无时无刻都要想办法让你的股员有那种精神练舞。不过，现在你可以松一口气啦^^下乡完毕了，但不代表我们的友谊也挂上句号哦^^我们住那么近，多多出来喝茶吧^^

健祥 : 你是不是很爱跳舞？？你跳的每一支舞都很好看哦^^每次要练舞的时候，雁慈和仁慧都爱选站在你的前面，看你示范^^期待你再次教我们练舞哦^^

木兰 : 你很傻傻样咧^^不过傻得还蛮可爱啦^^在团里没什么和你聊过，希望下次可以聊多点哦..

智骏：看到你的样子就想笑咯^^每当我们在跳《在关爱中成长》笑不出时，一旦看到你的傻乎乎的样子，我们立刻大笑一场^^你的样子果然可以令人发笑哦^^不过，你认真的那一面也蛮吓人的啦..你要永远保持傻乎乎的样子哦，因为这才是你^^

翠雯 : 你就像我们团里的大姐姐，很照顾每个团员。还记得在下乡的前两天，我们被前任协调员训了一顿，全团人都被骂哭了..虽然你自己也情不自禁的哭了，但你怕我们肚子饿，擦干了眼泪，你还是就去擦面包给我们吃..谢谢你哦^^

廷邦 : 你的健康虽然不是很理想，但你那股下乡的心，那股火让我觉得很敬佩^^谢谢你为我们团所做的一切^^真的非常谢谢你哦^^

慧恩 : 之前不是和你很熟，一旦你来我家过夜后，我们也变得很多话题说^^这也表示我们也慢慢变成有话题说的朋友哦^^希望下次可以和你分享分担更多的东西^^

文谊：之前对你有点误会，不好意思哦^^你是个很好，很值得交的朋友^^你是个很开朗的女孩 ^^每次看到你都觉得很开心，看到你的笑容更加开心^^在筹备营当中虽然你的脚受伤了，但你还是一样的出席，这让我觉得很内疚..你受伤了还忍着痛出席筹备营..谢谢你哦

正豪：我到现在才发现原来你是那么的贴心的^^之前没什么看到你，印象中就觉得你是哪种酷酷的男生。但原来是相反的^^世上很缺你这种男生哦，谁做了你的女友还真幸福咧^^

奕伦：个子高高的你还真明显咧^^哈哈...做什么事你都要特别小心，因为一旦犯错就很容易被别人发现了..哈哈。爱的温奕伦~你真的很明显哦^^

晓盈：奕伦的二奶~哈哈..不知何时就这样叫你了~不过你也没怎样啦，还和我一起颠^^很怀念和你一起看来玩笑的时候哦^^

凯胜 : 看不出原来你是那么的富有咧~还玩股票的咧~你还真不容易哦^^不怪的仁慧他们要book你做他们的男友啦^^哈哈……

兆民 : 原来你也不是酷男一族哦~终于看见你活泼的一面了^^就在生活营的时候哦^^不错，保持下去哦^^

诗虹 : 我们的财政大人……哈哈^^你那封恐吓信我还收着哦^^想不到你还会利用"恐吓信" 来威胁我们把钱准时交上^^还真有一套^^佩服佩服~你的理财技术还真不错^^下次你的老公可真放心让你理财了^^哈哈

仁慧 : 你啊~有时还真把我吓了一跳..一时说什么“不要逼我啦!” 你有什么事都可以和我分享分担啊~我可是你的助手咧……感觉上我没什么帮到你，真对不起啊~让你受苦了,真对不起~

碧云 : 你还凶哦~难怪那些小孩都怕了你~哈哈……说真的，你也是个不错的副团长，很照顾每个团员，甚至帮他们解决问题^^加油哦!!

俊麟 : 我很喜欢你带我们的方式，柔的来够刚，刚得来又有柔~即使我们这团没什么纪律，但至少我们很团结^^谢谢你哦~还有你啊，不要那么自闭嘛~在foundation时，从来没见过你那么自闭咧~还好现在有少少的变回自己了^^开心看到你做回原来的自己^^

下乡结束了，但这不代表我们的友情就在此挂上句号哦~我们大家都要保持联络，得空出来聚聚嘛~^^希望下次看到你们，你们都不会觉得很生疏哦~加油加油!!

~白痴~

2009-09-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

我自认自己是个白痴~

读书读不进脑,反而在那边哭..

简直就是白痴的行为..

看戏看到一半，别人在那边笑到肚子痛，

我却在一旁哭到眼睛肿...

又是另外一个白痴行为..

每次要说笑话弄别人笑，

但每次都不成功..

反而让人觉得我很白痴..

又是白痴~

白痴！白痴！白痴!

对这个词早已麻木了..

没感觉~

白痴的家伙!

不值得可怜的白痴!

我就是那么讨厌自己那么白痴~

白痴!

~心情~

2009-09-21T04:37:00.003+08:00

最近都没什么心情~

自己也不懂为了什么，

搞到自己那么的狼狈,

没心情，没心情，还是没心情..

没心情读书，

没心情出去，

没心情看戏...

人的心情都是随着环境的气氛而改变..

不能说人类情绪化，只能说那是变化..

因为变化，

人类天使化 ;

因为变化，

人类恶魔化 ;

因为变化，

人类都有孙悟空般的72化..

这么多的变化，

人类还靠得住吗？

说的话，

还能相信吗？

我不懂，

因为我也是人类~

自己也不能相信自己,

还能期望别人相信我吗？

我总是自以为是，

出来的结果往往就是往自己的脸打了一巴掌..

痛啊!!!

那种感觉不是每个人都明白的..

痛之中带有内疚，

内疚之中带有伤心流泪...

是书笔不能喻言的感觉...

什么嘛~

人类这么那么复杂？

就不能只有一个心情，一个感觉吗？

我要的就是开心...

但我永远给别人的感觉就是压力~

失败啊!!!

全都败在“心情”手中...

搞到我现在那么情绪化~

振作吧，野人之王!!!

要达到传开心之任务啊~^^v

ThE UgLy TrUtH~

2009-09-13T17:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I just went to a movie with my course mate..

Initially, we want to watch a movie called "Where Got Ghost?" which is a comedy film produced by a director from Singapore.

Unfortunately, the tickets were sold out when we reached there..

So, we went to another movie called " The Ugly Truth" at 11.10pm..

Hmm..before the movie start, we accompanied xiao thoong and ah choo to have their dinner..

At the moment waiting them to finish their dinner, I ordered a Cappuccino Ice Blended..

The moment I drink the cappuccino...WOW!! IT WAS SO DELICIOUS~

Yummy!! ^^

I liked can't stop myself from drinking it..

Until I finish the whole glass of cappuccino ice blended..

Yum Yum~ =D

Then I got the idea to order 1 more cappuccino ice-blended..I ADDICTED to it!! Love It~

But then I know I have to control myself...Because I spent too much at that day already..hehe..

I was getting high after finish drinking the cappuccino..LoL~

Choon Lin say that cappuccino must be mixed with alcohol already..haha XD

Then he also ordered one to try also..

At the end, he also get high~wahaha^^

Then both of us influenced others as well..

Even though other people didn't drink about it, they get high as well because of us..wahaha..

After ah choo and xiao thoong finish their dinner, then we enter the cinema to watch our movie..

YEAH~MOVIE TIME~

Before we enter cinema, the worker there ask all of us to take out IC card..

i was wondered what is going on..We are all above 18 years old la..

But then I realised something, that is really funny..

4 of the 5 person (sunny, xiao thoong, ah choo and me) are alomost the same height,

only choon lin that fellow has the normal height for our age..

So the workers think all of us are under age as the movie is labeled as 18-PL..

Oh My God~

First time watch movie being catched by workers to check our IC..LoL~

Really the first time..Anyway, it proved that all of us are look younger than our actual age..XD

During watching the movie, we keep on laughing on what the actors and actresses said in the movie..

That is damn damn funny..

I still remember one of the sentences in the movie..

Xiao Thoong keep on say this sentence after the movie..

The sentence is "CAN YOU PLEASE DON'T USE THE WORD OF "BLOW" AND "JOB" IN THE SAME SENTENCE?"..

Wahaha..XD

Anyway, the storyline of this movie quite nice and funny..

You all should go and watch it~ High Recommendation!! =P

Yesterday, we depart from our house at 8pm but we only get back to house at 2.30am..

WOW! The longest time we get high for this moment...haha..

We get already get a bit high at the beginning because just finish the toughest and stressful subject's exam..that is BROADCASTING I..(phew~ yeah~^^)

Anyway, now still have 4 more paper to go..

Gambateh!! All the best to all of you!!

GO GO GO!! ^^

Anyway, anyone can answer me is that every truth is also UGLY??

FaMiNe 30^^

2009-08-24T09:39:00.001+08:00

WoW~

Yesterday 23rd of August 2009, I just finished my fasting for 30 hours..

It is so syok, man!!

You guys must go to experience it next year...

Before I go to Famine 30 Hours..

I go for practise..

Haha..

First day, I fasting for 14 hours..

Second day, I fasting for 14 hours..

Third day, I fasting for 26 hours..

The feel is totally different...

WoW..

Now only I realise, I LOVE the feel of HUNGRY..

It make me so energetic even though I don't have anything in my stomach..

My friends all say I am insane..

During the FAMINE 30 DIY CAMP, I never feel a bit hungry..

I am the one who shout the most in the camp..haha( just wanna make my group member more energetic...so shouting some motivating slogans^^)

But I lost my voice at the next day..

L.O.V.E LOVE INDIA INDIA

BEAT IT~

NAANDEREE~

Haha..

that is my group slogan..

The most creative slogan among the groups..

Wahaha..just syok sendiri..

Who didn't join FAMINE 30 HOURS before..

You should go for it..

It really very fun..is true!!

Next year I sure join it again!!

FAMINE 30 2010, I WILL BE BACK!!

Haha..

me, grace goh and sabrina..haha..the most ugly picture of me..

me and my group member, Jooh..a pretty girl oh^^

this is the scene when I go to countdown ceremony at Stadium Bukit Jalil...Is around 7000 people at there..so high!!!

My SaMpAt CouSin~

2009-08-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

Thanks to my sampat cousin, Saiwin Chew..

Today I went to 1 Utama with my dearest and most sampat cousin..

We snap a lot of self-loving pictures..

1st time snap pictures with smile =)

Thanks so much, Saiwin~

I Love this Picture the most...

To Someone (a guy)

2009-08-11T10:43:00.000+08:00

I know you still care for me..

But can you don always ask me to accept this guy or that guy?

Not everyone is suit for me..

Sometimes I feel like I am a burden for everyone..

Always let people that around me worry about me..

make them sad, make their life so insecure because of me..

I know I dont have that great influence..

But I know my presence have make some people's life messy and suffer..

This is not the first time I feel so..

Stress has make my life so negative..

But then I still need to continue my life..

I dont know how long I can live in this earth..

With the energy I have, I will still make people that around me laugh..

make them happy..

I dont mind be a clown..

I just want all my friends happy..smile..laugh...

I know you always avoid me..

Just because of some reasons..

I know..i understand..

Sometimes I also doubt that should I tell you this and that..

but I know I have to keep my promise before I came to PJ..

that I have to tell you everything happening here..

I know when I tell you about my life, your mood will start to change..

You always ask me not so stress la..cheer up~

But it is hard for me..

Anyway, I will still make my life better..

Dont worry...

☆野人王の垃圾桶 ☆PiKaChU's WorLd☆

~ 爱情 ~

~ 不见了 ~

~ 最终留言 ~

~雨滴般的眼泪~

~ ♥ Once In A Love ♥ ~

~ ♥ Pulau Redang 热浪岛 ♥ ~

~ 生日前的恶梦 ~

~ 很久都没哭了 ~

~ 寂寞的脸 ~

~ 我的性格 ~

~ 实习的生活 ~

~ 离开 ~

~ 坚强 ~

~ 想念 ~

~ 发呆 ~

~ 时间 ~

~ BITCH ~

~ Left · 左 ~

~ 我的游戏世界 · My Game's World ~

~ 欠揍.Deserved ~

~ More Than Words ~

~ RainBow ~

~ 第一次 ~

~ My Dreams In My Life ~

~2011新年大聚会 + 新年趣事~

~ 我寂寞寂寞就好 ~

~ 短暂的开心 ~

~ New Year 2011 ~

~ It's ChRisTmAs MoNtH~

~ NeW BorN BaBy ~

~My 1st Ever Movie Event~

~ HOTTEST THING ~

~ 特别的日子 ~

~ 逃避 ~

~ Return ~

~ SaKaI之诗集 1 ~

~ DrEaM 梦~

~ 留言 2 ~

~ 月亮圆·月亮圆~

♥ 浪花一朵朵 ♥ （Sakai 版本）

~ 留言 1 ~

~ Bad Day or Lucky day?? ~

~隐形人的痛~

~Fighting Umbrella Corporation~

~伤害~

~Desa Theme Park~

~Bribe~

~My PJ room ~

~终于~

♥ SC Company Annual Gathering ♥

~投降~

~心里的话~

~愚蠢~

~充实的假期~ ^^

♥ 母亲节快乐 ♥

~话太普通~

~回乡~

~SaKaI BaBy? SaKaI PrinCess? ~

~麻烦的人~

~雨~

~快乐与伤心的交叉点~

~羡慕~

~RanDom~

~改变自己~

~Miss You All~

~Gathering~ 老朋友，老样子(*^__^*)

~Valentine's Day~

~Chinese New Year 2010~ WooHOO!!

~ Touching And Funny~

~Newie~

~Sorry~

我受够了..

~缺点~

~新年~

~心跳~

~我的阿嫲~

Am I Dreaming?? ~

Couple Shirt For Whole Family~^^

Nothing That I Can Done Perfectly~

~Gathering~ 老朋友，老样子(^__^)

SpEcIaL

下乡的话^^爱·童乐愿同心