To Someone (a guy)

I know you still care for me..

But can you don always ask me to accept this guy or that guy?

Not everyone is suit for me..

Sometimes I feel like I am a burden for everyone..

Always let people that around me worry about me..

make them sad, make their life so insecure because of me..

I know I dont have that great influence..

But I know my presence have make some people's life messy and suffer..

This is not the first time I feel so..

Stress has make my life so negative..

But then I still need to continue my life..

I dont know how long I can live in this earth..

With the energy I have, I will still make people that around me laugh..

make them happy..

I dont mind be a clown..

I just want all my friends happy..smile..laugh...

I know you always avoid me..

Just because of some reasons..

I know..i understand..

Sometimes I also doubt that should I tell you this and that..

but I know I have to keep my promise before I came to PJ..

that I have to tell you everything happening here..

I know when I tell you about my life, your mood will start to change..

You always ask me not so stress la..cheer up~

But it is hard for me..

Anyway, I will still make my life better..

Dont worry...