^WoRdS ArE MoRe ShArP ThAn WeAPoNs^

Most of the people think that when a sharp weapon stab into our body is the most painful thing ever..But they never think that actually a sentence of harsh words is even more painful than a sharp weapon..When weapon stab on our body, the worst is just we will have physically injured..after some treatment, the wound will be recover..However, when a harsh word is saying about us, we will suffer from the mentally injured..our heart will be hurt..and the wound will never be recover and there will be a scar that stay inside our heart forever and ever..

Maybe you will feel that if we don't care so much about what people say, we may not feel that pain..but do you really wont feel that pain? do you really wont care about what people say? I have a nice lecturer in my study life in UTAR Kampar..She is really a understanding lecturer..She never scold her students even the students make mistake.. But now she is being hurt by a sentence that come out from 1 of her students..She never feel that hurt before..Even when you heard that sentence, you will feel depress and sad..

Althought she is being criticised by her student, she never blame on that student but blame herself...She blame herself that can't give a perfect study life to her students..make the student's study life has a regret..She blame herself cant be a perfect lecturer..the student just say a sentence that full  of harsh words, but that is more than enough to hit someone's confidence..enough to strike someone from heaven to the hell..

That harsh sentence is more more SHARP than a knife and weapon..It hurt that lecturer deeply in heart..the wound will never recover..If recover, there also will be a deep deep scar that will stay in the heart forever and ever..By the way, I want taking this chance to apologize to my lecturer that I skipped her class that day..SORRY, miss lecturer..I wont do that again..And last, I hope Miss Lecturer will feel better soon and don't bother the harsh sentence already..Take Care, Miss Lecturer..

^FaiLed^

What is FAILED??  Refers to Oxford Advanced Learner's English-Chinese Dictionary (6th edition), page 613, FAILED mean not successful. Now, I would like to start telling you all what I failed recently...

First, is my assignment problem..Before I start my assignment, my members told me that we can finish the assignment by this coming friday(19.3.2009)..well, I said that it is not a problem for me if you guys willing to work hard for it^^At the same time, I felt happy also because I have more time to enjoy my study life at Kampar since this semester is my last semester at Kampar..haih..However, the mission to finish the assignment by this Friday is FAILED to achieve..This is because 1 of my group member has something urgent matters to do..and 2 of my members falling in sick..and the weather which always raining make me in trouble..because I don't have car plus my house is far far away from my group member's house..so raining becomes my excuse foe cancel the discussion..Sorry, guys(T.T) Then the discussion being postponed for 2 times..and the first discussion is held on yesterday mean 18th of March..But only me and avivi is in the discussion..Ash was rushing to hospital to visit his uncle, ghanish was badly sick..wai siong and calvin were having dinner..haih..then I start the discussion with avivi..but at the end, both of us watching movie named "Slumdog Millionaire"..Nice Movie^^

Second FAILED thing is my relationship..I was being rejected..I was FAILED..In previous blog, I got mentioned a guy..and I take out my bravery and courage to confess to him about my feel on him..he replied that actually he like me also^^BUT he said that he don't want has any girlfriend for now first..and then he start apologizes to me..Although at that time my heart is hurt, I still tell to him that it is not a big deal..I know I am try to hide myself to avoid from making the situation to become worse..but unfortunately I FAILED to do so..I can't hide my sadden..I write what I feel at that time in my msn's personal message there..and the guy that I like saw it and continue say sorry to me and ask me to do better for next time..SHIT!! What I want?Although I really hope that I can couple with him..but IT IS IMPOSSIBLE..Wake UP!!! Stupid Sakai King!! It is OVER!! By the way, I had told him that is no more for next time..It is hurt..He felt guilty for that too..the next day I felt so embarass to meet that guy..Once I saw him, I will pretend didn't see him or rush to toilet to escape from him..I know this is a small little girl's action..but I really don't know what to do at that time already..slowly, the situation become normal like last time..Me and the guy still close friend for now although my vindicate was FAILED..

FAILED FAILED FAILED!!

Is FAILURE  the lead to SUCCESS??

I really dont't know..I hope next time there will be no more FAILURE that make me feel regret in my life..Thanks GOD^^

PaSSionaTe LoVe^^

This semester my only assignment is social psychology..Then, my assignment title is Passionate Love Scale..When I having discussion with my group member ( I am the leader because I am the only girl in the group=="), first thing we have to do is think the question for the questionaire..

Ash think the first question," Do you obsessed upon he/she?" well..if this question let you to answer, what is your answer? Yes? Or No? 

Second question, "When you hold his/her hand in the public, will you feel like he/she is in your control?" Third question," Will you protective and possessive upon him/her?"

Then, at this time, I ask 1 of my member, Calvin.."How much you know about your girlfriend?"Then he replied me that which field I mean? I ask" Do you know when is your girlfriend period date?" He say "Yes!" Wow..This is a nice boyfriend..Then I ask again" Do you know what brand of pad your girlfriend using now?" He say "YES!! But she always change the brand" This answer is really good^^ I like this kind of guy..but not Calvin la..I ask again"Do you know what size of bra your girlfriend wearing?" He answer "YES!!" again...He say he know everything about his girlfriend including some private things..Wah!! This can show that how much he love his girl..I really really admire him..If I have such a boyfriend, I won't let him go forever..Haha^^

Then Ash said that he have a friend that very loyal and willing to sacrifices everything for her boyfriend..Ash said that her boyfriend was died since 3 years ago in an accident, but that girl will go to his grave every year..pray at there..talk to the grave of her boyfriend..and in friendster, she will send comment and testi to her boyfriend..and then use back her boyfriend's account to reply all the comment and testi..maybe it look weird, but I think that is a kind of way to comfort that girl..maybe she still cant accept the fact that her boyfriend is gone..such a touched love story, it should be post to let everyone read it..This is what we called TRUE LOVE and ETERNAL LOVE..

So, for every couple in this world, please appreciate the one who beside you now..don't only you feel regret when that one leaves you..

CruSh^^

My heart was being freezed and iced for a few years, I never have any feel to other guys till I meet him...My heart start to melt and start to admire him at first..Slowly, I feel that I am in crush..I start to care whatever he do, wherever he go..not only that, I also start to miss him everyday...Oh NO!! Why it will become like that?? Am I abnormal?

Since my 1st love gone, I never have that feel of like this before..Will he be my next love? I don't know..I not dare to tell him what I feel on him..I scare our friendship will be affected if I told him..plus both of us will meet always when we transfer to another campus..so to avoid from being awkward, I keep this feel inside my heart..I control my action..I control my feel toward him..

I don't know until when I can keep this feel but I will keep it as long as I can..Although now me and him are close friend, I still can feel the distance between us..I admit that I really hope he can be my boyfriend but I know it won't happen to me..Because I know he won't have feel on me...he have feel on other girl already..never ever will be my turn to be his next girl..I just hope that I can be his side..When he feel happy, I will feel please..When he feel sad, I will be there to comfort him and give him all my time if needed..I just wanna see him live in a life that full of happiness and smiling..Guy, I really like you..